Rain

Bullsh*tted Twice

My alarm went off, I tossed over in the hotel bed as I read the clock 6:20 am. Apparently, my dad was in Ohio this week so him and momma had to meet half way, but we still had to get up early.

I rubbed my eyes before turning over and getting on my phone. I got on Instagram and began scrolling, yes I made a Instagram account I had 6 thousand followers and I loved posting pictures on it. 

About 10 minutes later I finally had the strength to get up and take a quick 15 minute shower. I put on a nude colored bra, with pink undies. I began lotioning up with my Nicki Minaj.

I then went into the closet debating on what to wear. I wanted to look cute, yet simple. 

I picked out a black tank top, with a red Aztec cardigan, and some black high waist jeans I matched it up with my Jordans. Since I wanted to go without putting any heat on my hair for a month I put rollers in my hair last night. I began taking the rollers down section by section. I had really pretty curls.

I then brushed my teeth, when I was done I applied some carmax and light eyeliner and mascara. 

When I got done getting myself together mama was already dressed in her juicy couture sweats with her sleeked into a high bun she already took her shower last night. She brushed past me going into the bathroom to brush her teeth. This was a bittersweet moment. 

I grabbed my moms old black purse which was in great condition, before stuffing all of my stuff in it which consisted on my car charger, regular charger, my wallet (which I only had 20 dollars), pads, makeup, and other things in it. Mama walked out of the bathroom with her purse in her hands and her UGG boots on, she was seriously glowing.

“Is that my purse?” she asked frowning, I nodded my head. “What lets go so I can hurry and go back to sleep.” 

She grabbed her car keys and the room key before we exited the room.

Here go nothing.

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Momma and my Dad was meeting at some restaurant and we were less than 5 minutes away. As we pulled up I swear hysteria just made it was into my body. The palms of my hands got sweaty I took some deep breaths. Momma grabbed my hand and squeezed it letting my know that everything would be alright. I took one last deep breath before opening the car door. “Lord get me threw this.” I mumbled to myself.

We walked into a restaurant called Ram’s Horn. Momma held my hand before pointing to a man that look to be in his early thirties or late twenties. He was brown skin with perfect white teeth that he showed when he smiled at me and mama. “That’s him.. your father.” We slowly walked over to him. 

“Hi… Rain.” He extended his hands out for a hug. I just gave him one. He turned and looked mama up and down smirking. “Chanel,” He spoke, “Trey” she spoke coldly.

“Well I have to get going Rain baby I’ll call you in about an hour call me if you need ANYTHING” she speaks, I nod my head. She kissed my cheek while she mumbled “I love you” to me.

I sat down across from my dad.

“So how old are you now?” He started up a conversation.

“I’m 13.. I turned 13 in August.” I smiled.

“That’s nice.. you’ve grown up so beautifully your like a mini Chanel. I’m glad she finally let me see you.” He spoke I felt myself get angry. ‘Finally let me see you’? what the hell does he mean? He left us. He made the decision. He never even reached out! He wanted to abort me. 

“What do you mean? YOU Left, YOU shook me when I was a baby, YOU tried to make mama get an abortion, YOU left me and mama to go on and let mama have to go out and struggle to make ends meet, and when we did we still went through shit, SPARE ME THE BULLSHIT, Trey.” I coldly spat, I don’t why but it angered me that he wanted to make excuses. You’re a grown ass man, come on now. 

He chuckled.

“What the fuck is funny you giraffe?” I got angrier by the second. 

“She told you that bullshit too?” He shook his head rubbing his temples.

“Baby, I would NEVER EVER shake you, what kinda’ lifetime shit is that? When Chanel got pregnant she whimpered and cried about how she didn’t want a baby so soon, so I SUGGESTED an abortion though I wasn’t 100% sure about it. Me AND her decided on not getting the abortion. As she got into months of her pregnancy she claimed she needed space. So I gave her space! When you were born we got back together and with me being always at work trying to provide for y’all she kept complaining saying I didn’t spend enough time with you two. I tried to be the best boyfriend, and father but nothing was ever good enough. She left me and told me never to come in contact with you or her again. I tried to reach our for years, but y’all moved out of Chicago and I lost contact.” I now felt stupid for everything, I felt as if my momma lied to me to save her own ass. 

I can’t wait to see her later on tonight.

“I’m sorry, dad I didn’t know. I was just going off of what I knew”

“It’s okay babygirl I’m sorry Chanel manipulated you like that…. Lets not spend all day on this I only have you for a few more hours what do you wanna do?”

“Just take me to your house” I numbly spoke sliding out of my seat and grabbing my purse. I pulled my phone out along with my earphones. I blasted Jhene Aiko threw my ear as her song 3:16 am played.

I nodded my head to the beat. 

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I felt a light tap on my shoulder, “Rain baby wake up… we’re here” I flickered my eyes open I paused my music. I looked up to a huge mansion. “This is YOUR house?” I say amazed. There were two gates with security. “What are you dad? A celebrity?”

“Nah baby, I just like nice big things.” I unbuckled my seatbelt, getting out the car entering the house. It was gorgeous.

“I could get used to this” I mumble. 

“Well I got some work ta’ do. You can make yaself’ comfortable your room is upstairs to the right. I got a lil surprise for ya’ too enjoy” he kissed my cheek before walking away. 

I got upstairs to my room that was painted yellow and black, it had a beautiful queen sized bed, a flat screen tv, a bathroom, and a closet full of clothes.

“Wow..” 

I felt my phone buzz I looked at the caller i.d: Momma