Tell me im worth it

Chapter 1

My life was pretty much perfect that is untill i met him. See if i never met him i wouldn't be here under some stupid willow tree , holding this gun to my temple.

*2 years before*

I look at my self in the mirror and smile. My beautiful long, curly blond hair stood out under my bedroom light. My mascara and smoky eye shadow making my crystal blue eyes look even more blue and my $400 dress which in case you have to know is short, black and low cut in the back. I wore my favorite black bra and thongs and added a small gold chain round my neck. I look hot, ha cant wait till i get there.

I step out of my friend Karolina's car, closing the door behind me and waiting for her and her boyfriend Ben to step out of the car, have i mentioned Karolina has light blue hair and likes it down. She wore black disco pants with a purple belly top with her new belly bar. Ben Bruce was in a band which just formed a few months ago but i have to say they are pretty good.

I look down at my self and admire my new heels.

'we're just gonna stay around the back of the house near the pool' Karolina says with a smirk

'sure have fun' i smile ,guess i will have to find my own kind of fun. As i walk in the song changed it was 'call me maybe' i hated the song, it was pointless. I walk over to the drinks and drink a shot and smile at the guys who were staring at my cleavage, bless they think they have a chance.

'hey again Blondie' some guy says from behind me. I turn around.

'oh hi Blake and its Kate thought you would remember' i tease but barely remembering him myself, all i knew was that we made out at his party just before the police turned up.

'well its hard to forget you now want to go upstairs and check if there's a free room'.

'how about we play some games first' i grin.

After we played a few drinking games Blake took me onto the dance floor, he twirled me round and held me close while we slow danced. After the dance i took him up stairs into a empty bedroom. He grinned as we got on the bed, i kissed him hopping onto his lap unbuttoning his shirt just before he pushed me back. I looked at him confused.

'what's your favourite colour?' he asks. This never really happened before. I sit up against the wall at the edge of the bed.

'gold and yours?' i sigh

'black' he smiles

At that point i realised that hes an emo for sure or a goth, i mean black kind of long hair straightened for sure and a top with some band on it called Black Vail Brides ? Oh and black jeans and cant forget the bracelets and behind them... Scratches, typical.

'are you like an emo?' i ask trying not to hurt his feelings.

He laughs.

'You know what i guess i am' he smiles.

He had such a perfect smile dimples and everything.... Don't get too attached you wont see him again.

'you have beautiful eyes' he told me still smiling.

'Thanks' i blush, i hear police sirens probably because the neighbours complained.

'come on lets get going' Blake took my hand and we left through the back door. He walked up to a Harley (in case you don't know that's a motorbike).

'want a ride home' he grins

'sure just give me a sec' i smile.

I text Karolina and Ben telling them " go home without me in getting a ride ". Then i turn my phone off and put on the helmet that Blake gave me and hopped on behind him as we sped away, my hold of him got tighter as we went faster.

'where do you live?' he asks smirking