Tell me im worth it

Chapter 6

I look wake up once again and look around, i was surprised to see no one here today witch is not normal, not here anyway. i sigh and sit up feeling no pain for once, i ate breakfast and got try to get up and fall on the bed, my legs were a little wobbly and i felt un well, i sigh again and look around then notice there was a wheel chair on the right side of the bed. Feeling weird i slowly moved myself onto the seat of the wheelchair witch took at least 10 minutes then i moved the wheel things so i got up to the window. this was kind of hard, the moving anyway. i look out of the window for the fist time and recognized the view.... could this be the hospital where Heather died? how could they take me to this place! HOW DARE THEY! tears fell from my eyes, down my cheeks. I just sat there and cryed for a while.

i open my eyes to see i was still in the wheelchair... i must have fell asleep. i go over to the door and open it then leave (still in my wheelchair). i go over to the reception.

'excuse me miss do you know what the date is?' i ask

'its the tenth of jully' she smiles and continues to do her work

i frown and try to get up again and i fail and fall to the ground. nurses come over to help me up.

'GO AWAY YOU MONSTERS..... LEAVE!!!' i scream at them just like 3 years back.

*3 YEARS AGO(FLASH BACK)*

I smile at Jake as he bends down to kiss my big stomach.

'6 and a half months today' he smiles and gives me a kiss

'i know and I'm as big as a whale' i grin

'i don't mind' he smiles

i feel a strong kick in my stomach and feel something pour down my leg and i just knew my water broke.

'what is it babe' he asks worried

'my water broke' i whisper

'but its to early' he points out

'I KNOW!' i scream

then before i could protest he picked me up and ran to the car.....

once in the hospital all the doctors came running and they took me to the emergency room.

After a few hours i got told to push and i did but as i was about to pass out they said i was too weak. i look at Jake holding my hand and we share a look of worry.

'its fine just get her out, i'll be fine' i say but they put a mask onto my face and my body started getting numb. after Heather was out they passed her to me and i just smiled, she never cried just smiled slightly and i fell in love with her. This tiny girl in my arms was gorgeous. soon after she got taken away and i was going to take her back before Jake told me how she was born to early so they had to do some tests on her. 2 weeks later i got woken up to dpctors around my room and Jake crying by my bed. Thats when they told me Heather didn't make it through the night and thats when everything inside me broke forever. i was only 15 but i didn't care i was prepared and then this happens. i cry and get out off the bed to run but they grab my arm and tell me to calm down.

'GET OFF ME YOU MONSTERS' i scream and Jake just stares out of the window like nothings happening.

a week later we had the funeral and me and Jake became distant and just stopped talking to each other.....

*END OFF FLASH BACK*

i open my eyes to lights,once again. i sit up and see Karolina, she runs over to me and gives me a hug then lays next to me. i cuddle up to her knowing she understood (being my best friend and stuff).

'im so sorry' she whispers

'it's not your fault she died...... it's mine' i cry

'no it's not' she says trying to stay calm but i knew she was feeling the pain im feeling.

"it is, i should have been strong enough to give birth to her maybe she would be ok and would have even turned 3 today' i cry and she just cuddles me