Tell me im worth it

~~~ Chapter 11 ~~~

I slowly open my eyes to an unfamiliar place. I sit up and my head starts pounding, I glance to my right and saw Jake laying there in his boxers. I look down at myself and notice that I was completely nude. I frown trying to remember what happened, my mind was like an empty sheet of paper, then my headache returns. I get of the bed and look around the room I was in then after a long time I gave up on trying to find my clothes and searched a draw and found a black shirt and black boxers. I put them on and left the room, where the fuck am I? I frown again realizing I probably got pissed and slept with Jake , not that there was anything wrong with him just.... I guess I don't want him to get involved in this little love cycle of mine. I find the kitchen and have some milk, because milk always cheers you up..... right? I hear footsteps and soon see Jake at the door

'How are you feeling?' He asks looking everywhere but at me. Did I do something wrong?!?!

'Like crap' I tell him honestly

' I'll make some coffee' he walks over to the coffee machine

'What exactly happened last night?' I ask him.

He looks at me like I was stupid.

'You don't remember at all?' He asks still making coffee

I shake my head

'Not at all' I say and sadness spreads his face

'Well.....' he trails off.....

***FLASH BACK***

He pulls me over to a less crowded place. I wobble a little and he puts an arm around my waist, keeping me up.

'Why did you do that?? Are you jealllouss??' I giggle

'Because you would regret it later and no I'm not its your life do what ever the fuck you want' I could tell he was lying about the last bit Because his nose twitched slightly like it always did when he lied about anything.

'Okkkkay' I smile and give him a kiss on the cheek, then someone taps my shoulder and there was Blake, I smile and wrap my arms around him and kiss him. After we pulled away and I introduced the guys to each other, I could practically feel the tension in the air, so I went to the bar and brought some shots over. A dozen shots later I was falling everywhere and when Blake went to the bathroom I pushed Jake against the wall and full on kissed him. I see Sam looking at us in the corner of my eye and soon enough he came over

'WHAT THE FUCK KATE!?! YOUR AS BAD AS DANNY?!?!' He screams and I wobble closer to him and push him back, though he barely moved.

'Well don't tell me what to do..... my lifeee not yoursss' I tell him not bothered to yell

He frowns probably realizing how pissed i am.

'Look Kate i really like you, cant you see that?' he looked like a lost pup at that moment and i almost felt bad at that second..... almost

'Well why don't you go follow some other girl around okay?!?!' i spat unsure of where the anger came from. He looked like i just slapped him.

'Fucking hell, don't you have a heart' the look on his face was filled with anger and i kind of preferred the lost pup face now.

'Dont cry now or worse..... slit your wrists to bits' i laugh a bitter laugh (what was going on with me)

His expression turned from anger to hatred.

'Why don't you take some more skinny pills you fat whore' he wasn't yelling just talking like this was just a ordinary conversation.

The insult stung like a bitch though so my drunk self done something stupid like punching him hard in the nose repeatedly until i herd a crack. Then finally a reaction from Jake, he pulled my away but i pushed him away then Blake tried to help and i pushed him off too.

'AND YOU TWO CAN BACK OFF TOO!!! IM FUCKING TIERED OF IT!!!' i scream  and notice that there was a huge crowd around us and for some reason no one seemed to have called the police just yet.

'JAKE YOU HAVEN'T BEEN THERE FOR ME EVER SINCE HEATHER DIED!!! I BET YOU DON'T EVEN CARE!!! AND NEWS FLASH I DON'T WANT YOU BACK!!!' I scream this time louder then turn to Blake

'WHY DON'T YOU GO BACK TO YOUR STUPID GIRLFRIEND!!!! MAYBE SHE WILL KISS YOUR SCARS AWAY' i had tears in my eyes at this point and so did they. Then the unexpected happened, Sam pushed me to the floor and punched me hard, Blake turned away then disappeared into the crowd but Jake stuck around and pushed Sam off me and soon there was a fight between Sam and him. i get up and push both of them off each other. Then Danny, Ben, Cameron and James come over and split me, Sam and Jake up. Soon after Jake pulls me through the crowd and started walking towards a taxi.

He took me to a 'friend's house', well that's what he said. Then takes me upstairs, i started taking my clothes off, until i was completely naked then threw my clothes out the window while laughing and turned to look at Jake who looked kind of scared. i kiss him and he kissed me back but after i took his top and jeans off he must have came to his senses or something because he stopped kissing me and pushed me off. i sigh and after i didn't get attention from him i went under the covers and......cried. Why was i acting like this. i felt sick rise to my throat and ran to the bathroom. Then i just went to bed.

***END OF FLASHBACK***

the rest of the day went by super fast. I found my clothes in the end witch survived the night by the way. Then the next day i took a train home and noticed i had a very bad looking black eye.