I Won't Leave You || mgc

Chapter 71

You would think it would get easier.

You would get used to it.

It would stop hurting that much.

But that was wrong.

It hurt more every single time.

It got worse every single time.

It started with staying up at 3:30 am. Both of us not talking a lot, just trying to get ready quickly and not thinking too much about everything.

For me from the beginning till the end it was trying not to cry – and at some point, I always failed, and the moment I couldn't hold it in anymore he couldn't do it too.

When we got up at 3:30 in the morning I was too tired to cry anyway.

But when we've been awake for nearly an hour and we were on the way to the airport we start to realise.

When we both tightened the grip around each other's hand and when I laid my head on his shoulder, he laid his head on mine and when he stroked up and down with his thumb on the back of my hand it hit me.

It was the first time for me that I wasn't the one who left.

I couldn't tell what was worse.

To leave or to be left?

It was yet another time that we both were about to be separated without knowing when we'll see each other again.

It was yet another time that we both didn't know how everything would end.

And when we were sitting like that, next to each other in the back of the taxi and Michael was whispering sweet nothing's into my ear I couldn't hold it back anymore.

I was silently crying into Michael's shoulder, ruining his All Time Low shirt, but he didn't care.

When we both got out of the car it got even worse.

When we entered the airport, I felt as if my whole world was about to fall apart.

"Why doesn't this get easier?"

"It was the easiest the first time, wasn't it?"

I nodded. "We weren't in a relationship then."

"But I already had a crush on you. The moment I saw you in the crowd that day... I knew everything was going to change, I knew you were the best thing that has ever happened to me."

"I had a crush on you before you even knew I existed, I think I've won."

Michael chuckled slightly.

"I love you, kitten, I love you so much."

I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him for a very long time, none of us wanting to let go.

"I love you too, Mikey, more than anything else."

"I will never hurt you like that again. I know you can't believe that right now, but I'll show it to you."

"I hope you really mean that."

"I do."

"Then I'll believe you."

All of a sudden Michael started smiling, a happy, thankful and honest smile.

"God, how did I get this lucky?"

I started sobbing, awfully sobbing, a crying mess.

So, Michael and I were holding each other, crying in each other's shoulder.

"I need to go, Adley."

"I know..."

"You need to let me go."

"Oh, right."

I loosened the grip around him so that he could take a step back. But the moment our eyes met he pulled me closer again, one hand on my waist, the other one on my cheek and he gently placed his lips onto mine.

Lovingly, affectionate, soft and perfect.

We didn't pull away from each other in what seemed like forever but felt like just two seconds.

"See you again soon?" My voice cracked in the middle of the question, ending in just a whisper.

"See you again soon."

When Michael turned around and walked away I felt numb.

My mind was empty.

I felt absolutely nothing.

The way back home I didn't feel like listening to music.

I was sitting in the cab, looking out of the window and the only thing I felt were the tears streaming down my face.

And I also felt my phone vibrating in my jeans pocket.

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Fav Idiot💙:
I can leave sooner, I'll be back in a month, alright? I bring music, movies and sweets with me. Call me if you need anything.
Love you

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And I realised once again that I had the best brother in the world.

And I was thankful for it.

Very thankful.

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@5SOSupdates:
To all the fans waiting for the boys at the airport in Sydney: be kind, show respect. As far as we know Michael was visiting Adley and he may not be in the mood for talking or taking pictures. Who of you would like to talk after a 30 hour flight anyway?