Hood fever | Oscar Diaz

Chapter: 67

January 10th 2019

Oscar

My heart was pounding as I walked to Leilani's bedroom. I opened the door and she was on her phone and her earphones were in, she didn't notice me standing there.
I noticed two bottles of pills on her night stand.
My heart sunk.

I closed the door behind me, she finally looked up.
She had a big smile on her face.
Even after I ignored her, she was happy to see me.
You're not good enough for her.

"Hey baby!" She said as she jumped off the bed into my arms. She wrapped her arms around me tight.
"I missed you so much." She said.
I didn't say anything I just closed my eyes and held her close breathing in her scent.

She pulled away and waved me over to the bed.
I kicked off my shoes and sat on the bed with her.
"I'm sorry I didn't let you come see me." She said.
I shook my head, "it's cool you had your reasons."
I grabbed the pills off the night stand and shook them.

"Cesar told you didn't he?" She asked.
I nodded and didn't look up at her.
I just read both pill bottles.
"When?" She asked.

"This morning." I said. "Don't get mad I pushed him to tell me." More like he found out I cheated and he read me my goddamn rights.

She nodded, "it's okay."
"So, nausea, dizziness, dry mouth?" I asked as I rubbed my chin reading out all the symptoms.

"Yeah." She said grabbing the pills.
"I've only had mild nausea tho that's it." She smiled.
I didn't say anything.
"So far only high stress is a trigger or anxiety, but the Carbamazepine is really helping with that, I haven't had a seizure so that's good." She said.

I still didn't say anything I wanted to cry.
I felt like shit.
Complete shit.
"But the doctors said sometimes if it's well managed you can go years or even the rest of your life without an episode I hope I can make it that far." She said enthusiastically.

I still didn't say anything.
She shouldn't have to go through this.

"Baby?" She said grabbing my hand.
I couldn't look her in the eyes.
I couldn't face her.

I felt her hands on my face.
I turned to look at her.
"You okay? You've been M.I.A" She said.
"Jose said stuff with Los Santos had been going down". Yeah I fucked Lexi into Los Santos.

I nodded my head and wiped my eyes.
"Yeah, shits been fucked up." I said.

"Do you wanna talk about it baby?" She asked as she climbed into my lap. I shook my head.

"Nah, I want to talk about you." I said wrapping my arms around her.

"I'm okay, for the first couple of days I was a little sad about it, but I accepted it." She sighed.
"Why's your heart beating so fast?" She asked as she looked in my eyes.

I cheated
I cheated
I cheated
I cheated.
"I'm just upset this happened to you." I said hugging her. "You shouldn't have to go though this."

She shook her head. "I'm gonna be fine babe."

God I can't tell her, if i tell her she's gonna lose it and have another seizure, and what if this one kills her?