The Complications of Love (under construction)

Chapter 7: Change

Chapter 7: Change.

Seth's POV

Pain. It was suffocating me so much that I just wanted to crawl into a corner and die. But I thought about my family who were already suffering from my dad's death. I couldn't do that to them. I had to be strong for my mom and sister.

"Seth, are you ok?" Jared asked.

"Yeah, I'm just fine. My dad just died and to top it all off I just turned into a giant, furry beast." I answered sarcastically.

My thoughts drifted back to my dad. Why? Why would he do that us, his family? He was supposed to live longer, grow old with my mom and being surrounded with his grandchildren. He was supposed to be at my graduation. He was supposed to walk Leah down the aisle at her wedding and her over to her husband. Why would he be so selfish and just leave us without warning or saying his goodbyes?

I wanted to blame myself. If only I had stayed home with him and spent time with him. If only I could have been there with him during his last hours. If only. But I hadn't. And I would forever regret my mistake.

"It wasn't your fault." Leah said silently beside me.

I just looked at her. She was thinking the same thing I was, if only she had been with him.

I couldn't deal with this. One good thing happens to me and it had to be replaced with a bad thing. The worst thing was the looks people would give me; I didn't want their sympathetic looks. I wondered how drastically my life had changed. One minute I had a happy life and the next a miserable one. I wondered if any of this would affect my relationship with Gabriella.

"You have to stay away from her Seth. You're just a newly phased wolf; you can't be around people for awhile." Sam explained.

"What? But what about my mom, she needs me and Leah."

"You can be around her but if you ever lose your temper get as far as possible away from her. You understand?"

"Yeah."

I felt sorry for Leah, she had just gotten over Sam and now she had to spend loads of time with him and even share minds with him.

I heard Leah growl beside me as she heard my thought.

"Sorry." I thought to her.

I felt a shimmer in the air, Jacob had just 'phased' as the called it.

"Sam, Emily's just arrived. Go. Me and Jared will take care of them." He said.

"Ok, I'll check in later. And when you've gotten them to phase back to their human form take them back to Emily's house."And with that he phased out.

I thought about my cousin Emily. We hadn't really talked after what she did to Leah, even though my dad always tried to convince us it wasn't Emily's fault. I had visited her once in the hospital when she had apparently gotten mauled by a bear. This gave me a thought...

"Jared, was it Sam that did that to Emily's face?" I asked curious.

"Uh, yeah." He answered uncomfortably. "But it was only because he was just a new wolf and had trouble controlling his phasing. Em had made him real made and he lost it."

Poor Emily. That gave me the push to realize that it was probably best if I stayed away from Gabriella for a while. I didn't want to hurt her if I ever lost my temper and phased while she was near me.

Jacob snorted. "Yeah, like Embry would let you hurt her." He thought.

I looked at him confused. "Why would Embry do that?"