Daily Interactions

Trust

Misunderstandings amplified by rumours and gossips, never a good combination. Doubts form and self confidence gets a battering as more and more serpants whispers into his ear.

Krist slammed the door shut as he left the room, leaving the older inside baffled as to what the fuck had just happened. As Krist climbed up the many steps up to the roof slash smoking area slash recreation area for GMMTV employees, he cursed under his breath at himself.

Why did he get so weak? Why did he let people get to him? What if it's not true?

What if it is?

The rooftop was thankfully clear of any staff, the hour too late for anyone who isn't filming or working overtime. The cool Bangkok night air did little to clear his mind as he looked out to the horizon.

"Krist"

That voice, the one that had laughed at his jokes, his partner in crime, the voice that had soothed him when he was going through a rough patch and who had then murmured so many tender words which caught his heart, and the voice which had promised him forever. Right now? It sounded like needles scratching on a chalkboard, his every being afraid of what could be the next sentence that Singto will say.

The older man did not attempt to reach out for Krist, this is not a familiar ground for either of them. Singto stood next to Krist, eyes not really focusing on the night sky in front of them.

"Do you trust me?"

Silence met Singto's question.

Krist instead took a deep breath, the question lingering in his mind, he himself wondering what is the answer. Seconds turned to minutes and as time passes them by, Singto felt more hopeless.

He is barely hanging on with work and school and it amazes him how he manage to call this beautiful man in front of him as his. If Krist don't even fundamentally trust him,   how will he hang on, how can he fight for them, for the man he love? Rumours and gossips come and go and this isn't the first and it wouldn't be the last. If there is no trust, it is almost as good as saying this is the end.

"Yes"

The soft whisper escaped into the wind, not before Singto catches it. He didn't realize that he had held his breath till then and he looked at Krist and the younger was staring at him.

"I'm sorry I doubted you. I'm just never good enough.."

Krist silenced when Singto closed his palm over his mouth and pulled him close. Krist calmed down in Singto's warm embrace when Singto finally spoke.

"You are far too good for me and to put up with me and all my eccentricities. I don't care what other people say about me or with who they are fucking pairing me with but in my eyes, in my heart, I am just a man working hard to be good enough so one day I can tell the whole world confidently that you are mine and no one will be able to tell you that you can do better than me"

Krist hugged the other tighter at the declaration, finally understanding that all this while, Singto had been working towards is for their future almost obsessively while he himself was letting other people's jealousy drive a wedge between them. He felt so idiotic but also so thankful that the older had came up to find him despite his sharp accusations earlier.

"I love you"

Those three simple words were rarely said, but not that it was never felt in Krist's every action. Singto smiled into Krist's hair.

"Forever"
"Forever"