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32.| el hob

el hob
{Arabic} 》love

H a i l e e

         I ran again but this time for the right reason. After my talk with Ana and little more encouragement from her, I decided to go to Aries's house. I thanked her repeatedly and kissed her cheeks till they were beet red and I took off running towards the subway. Adrenaline was coursing through me like a wild fire. I felt energetic and like I was flying. My limbs were tingling and my heart was beating way too fast but I didn't care. I was going to see Aries and finally set this thing right. I love him. I love everything about him, his little quirks, his smiles, the way his eyes shine when he is talking about his mom or his friends, the way he is with his friends and how he treats them. I respect him for all he has been through, I respect and adore that his spirit hasn't been broken by the stuff that he had to conquer. And I absolutely love how he treats me, how supportive he is and how he makes me feel. He makes me feel like I'm the only girl out there, he makes me love myself for who I am. He isn't just my knight in a shinning armor, he is my sun, moon and stars.

As soon as the subway reached its destination, I headed towards the red brick house that belonged to him. I raced between people who were walking around till I reached his front porch. I went up the small steps and knocked the door like I'm an FBI agent and about to kick his door down. My knuckles almost bled from how fast I was knocking.

Aries opened the door with a scowl on his face, ready to yell on whoever bothered him. When his mind finally caught up with what he was seeing, his expression quickly went blank and I held my breath.

"What are you doing here?" His voice was void of emotion just like his face and I felt like crying for the millionth time today. Gosh, he's turning me into such a cry baby.

"I'm sorry," I gulped. My throat felt tight but I kept on talking anyway. I needed to get this weight off my chest. "I probably confused the hell out of you and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings by turning away."

"You didn't just turn away, Hailee, you ran!" I flinched slightly as I felt my heart drop between my feet.

"You ran like I fucking killed someone and you never wanted to see my face again!" I let my eyes fall down to the ground in shame. I glanced up as he ran his hand through his hair frustratingly.

"I'm a coward, a big fucking scaredy cat, okay?" I sighed.

"I'm afraid that I'm gonna lose you one way or another, y'know?" I bit the inside of my cheeks anxiously before continuing. "I've been running from my feelings for a while because I thought it makes everything easier when I leave." Tears welled up in my eyes as I finally found the courage to look him in his beautifully hypnotising brown orbs.

"But quite frankly, I don't care if I leave! Because I want this to work even if I had to go to Japan and you're still here in New York. I don't care where we end up, all I care about is you." I gently rested my hands on his cheeks as I inched closer towards him. Both of us holding our breaths and just waiting for the words to come out.

"Because I love you." I whispered with the softest yet most genuine smile that was filled with adoration and pure love. A single tears rolled down my cheek, it was a happy tear, I was finally able to confess and get this weight off my shoulders.

"Gosh, I'm so sorry that you had to be scared of love but I'm not and I love you, I love everything about you. Hailee, you mean the world to me, you're everything that I could ever dream of and more." I chuckled lightly as he smiled widely at me showing me those pearl white teeth.

And that's when my lips met his in the most passionate, sensual gesture ever. We poured our love and affection into this kiss, we let it tie us and wrap us with a warm fuzzy blanket that's love.

Let's be honest, I wasn't expecting him. I wasn't expecting this kind of love either when I stepped foot in JFK. He came out of the blue, like a flower in the middle of the snow, like a puppy on a bad day, like a shinning sun in the middle of a storm yet he is everything I've expected and wanted in a man. He isn't like other guys, he is honest, mature, kind, respectful, confident but not cocky, protective but not overbearing, sensitive yet not overly sensitive to the point where you can't say anything towards him, sympathetic, funny and he makes me laugh like no other. He's romantic and cheesy and all of this is just a fraction of who he is, the tip of the ice burg and I couldn't be more honored to have the privilege of getting to know him.

I'm really head-over-heels in love with him and I'm not afraid to admit to myself or to anyone for that matter.

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A r i e s

           I think my mind exploded over a hundred times in the past few days.

After our first kiss, I gave Hailee her space because I knew she needed it. She is a professional over thinker and I knew she needed her time with it. Despite that, I was still very hurt by her action. Leaving me stranded in the middle of a mall parking lot wasn't cool but she was already forgiven for that. As the days dragged by and no calls from her, I hoped I could see her on Monday but when she didn't show up to school that's when I started to worry. All kind of thoughts ran through my head, Monday night was an all nighter for me as I kept analysing where did I go wrong.

Tuesday though was a different story, I was determined to tell Hailee how I feel, if she hadn't come to school, I would have gone to her house or met her in H&M. I was driven to get my love out and show her that there's nothing scary when it comes to love, but that determination went down the drain when she again ran away from me and that's when my heart shattered. I honestly thought she wasn't ever coming back. I thought I was going to be left with a broken heart and a confused mind.

But Hailee blow my pants off when she showed up at my front door with heavy breathing and couple of sweat beads on her forehead. She seemed as if she had ran to get to me and now I know that she had.

Hearing her utter the three magical words was like falling in love with her all over again. It didn't feel like I was falling alone anymore, it felt like we were flying, together. It feels like I've reached the stars, a very special star in particular, Hailee.

She wasn't love at first sight, no, she was love that gradually came to me in refreshing, awakening waves. She slowly yet steadily, surely became my most important person. She impeded herself into my life like a seed you would plant and it would blossom into a beautiful rose.

Her soft smiles draw me in closer to the edge of a cliff everyday, her shy chuckles, shiny doe-like eyes, gentle touches and warm hugs kept drawing me in. Her big beautiful heart and her brain and intelligence that kept taking my breath away every day pushed me off that cliff till I found myself falling and I was beyond happy about it.

I wasn't afraid of this love, I dived nose first into it knowing that's it's going to be the best thing that has ever happened to me. And no matter what, no matter the obstacles that are going to be thrown our away, we are going to get through them because we love each other and that's the only thing that really truly matter.

I love her and I'm not shamed of it or what it is doing to me.