Not Everything Goes According to Plan (Brallon/Ryden)

Chapter 2: Letting Reality Sink In

I ran up to my apartment and locked the door behind me. My legs touch the floor as my hands smoothly slide down the face of my door.

I let reality sink in:

I did it. I silently remind myself.

I giggled and whispered, "I did it".

I laugh hysterically and scream, " I DID IT I FUCKING MADE IT HAHA!"

My life was now on track, the way I wanted it to go. Nobody had control over me anymore. I was my own person, I was free. I proved them wrong,

I won.

But in the end it's not about winning, it's about being happy. And hell, I'm past happy. I'm freakin' ecstatic.

Tomorrow morning was my first practice with the band. I knew who they were, I knew they're story. They came along way and never gave up when it got rough after the split between Spencer and Brendon and Ryan and Jon.

It was kind of odd knowing there was other gay men in the band. No doubt about it Brendon and Ryan had a relationship, and I have absolutely no intention in getting involved in these band member affairs. Job and love will be seperated.

I went to bed that night so eager for the next day, not knowing what wonders to expect. After all, I knew things were going to change for me-definitely for the better.

That was the first night in ages that I had slept with the uttermost confidence and approval in myself. It was fantastic.

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The next day arrived and I couldn't be more excited. I jumped out of bed as quickly as my feet would carry me and dressed according to the occasion, so jeans and a tshirt.

I arrived at the studio very eager of my new life that was in front of me, I was going to make it. I was finally living the life I wanted to live.

Just as I walked in, a familiar voice greeted me, "Hey man! Welcome to the studio! Incase you don't remember, I'm Brendon and that's Spencer and we're totally stoked to have you here. So just um, make yourself at home!"

Of course I remembered who he was. How could I forget those beautiful eyes and sexy body, I mean If I were Ryan I'd be crawling back to the band just to have sex with Brendon one more time.

Snap out of it Dallon. Work and Love do not mix, you know that.

I regained consciousness back into reality, " Oh yeah man thanks for having me! I'm totally looking forward to working with you guys." I responded eagerly but still felt a nervousness in the bottom of my stomach. I felt that if I made a single mistake, Brendon would kick my ass on the street like my parents did and my life would (once again) be pure hell.

"That's why I'm not going to be a screw up" I whispered to myself.

"What's that buddy?" Brendon questioned as he placed his soft and gentle hand on my shoulder.

Oh god that's nice, just keep your hand there.

"Dal?"

" Oh oh yeah, um I'm um... I didn't say anything!" I quickly managed to get out.

"Whatever you say man, haha" Brendon smiled and winked at me then walked away to Spencer.

My stomach once again filled with butterflies and my cheeks turned rose. I couldn't help but smile because that man was so amazing.

You just met him Dal I reminded myself.

But there's something about him, i just can't resist.