Not Everything Goes According to Plan (Brallon/Ryden)

Chapter 26: If You Can Hear Me

The room is dark but my eyes still catch the glimpses of cars driving by on the highway. Every now and then we hit a small bump, making the bus shake a bit but nothing too dramatic to wake anyone up.

I am wide awake.

I should sleep.

I need to sleep.

But I can't.
I try to force my eyes to shut but instead I observe everything. The way the light shines from Spencer's bunk through his curtain; he's probably talking to Linda. What I would do to have a steady relationship like that.

I chuckle then move onto the next object of interest.

My phone sits on the table of our miniature kitchen. It slides back but a book catches it; I would've been too lazy to pick it up anyways.

Nothing mattered to me right now.

I sigh and try again to count sheep- but it's no use. I don't want to do a self therapy session either, I'll only get more depressed.

Instead I turn to my side to stare at the wall.

Maybe I can bore myself to death...

After a couple minutes of my method failing, I hear rustling above me. He's probably just changing sides, nothing special. I turn back around and close my eyes.

I feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist, but I don't bother to turn around. He brings his his lips close to my ear,"Do you still love me?" He whispers, "Because I still love you, and I know I've done some bad things, but it's time we ignore this and us avoid fading away."

I turn to see Brendon and greet him with a soft peck on his forehead. I look down in shame because I know he knows he's wrong, "No, no, this is my fault too. I want to be Brendon and Dallon. No crazy previous relationship shit. A new fresh start."

He cracks smile and combs through my hair and accepts my offer, followed by a kiss.
"I can't agree more Dal."

He snuggles in closer, trying to make us fit on the slim twin sized bed. He hesitates to cradle into my next but instead props his head up with his arm and looks at me.

"Dallon?" He asks.

"Yes?" I smile slightly.

"I-I just wanted to let you know that you saved me. When Ryan left, man I was a wreck. I mean it was bad, I had a hole in me for years and I felt lost and helpless without him. At one moment he was my everything, and at the next he was gone. No formal goodbye, no explanation, just an 'I'm leaving the band'. So that too was my fault." I looked at him with sympathy because I knew what he went through was horrible. I could see the tears forming in his eyes from the memories, but he wouldn't cry for Ryan. Not after all that he's done for us.

He lifts my face with the tip of his hand and gazes into my eyes.

"And then I met you. You've done so much good for me that I can't explain. I never thought there would be someone so spectacular and perfect, but I was completely wrong. I know we haven't had the best of times lately but Dallon, I love you and without all this happening, I wouldn't have realized how special you are. You are my everything, you make me who I am now, which is the luckiest man in the world."

My eyes begin to tear up as he finishes his speech. Before he can say another word, we intertwine our fingers and press our lips together. I whisper an 'I love you too' between our kiss, and he nods while cracking a smile.

Our lips break away but our hands stay locked the entire night. He lays on my chest, our hands resting across his waist. He was like a puppy laying against you, trying to be protective but so innocent. I now only thought of how much I wanted to get lost in his eyes and hug and kiss him until our lips bleed. I want to have a life, have a family, I want us to be us.

He was mine and I was his. And that's the way it needed to be.