My Heart Beats For You

Chapter 11 Why Are Relationships So Hard?

June 26, 2012

I'm going to visit Zack on August 3rd. We decided we want to figure this out in person, not on the phone. So until then, I'm going to keep my mind off of things by going places with my friends. I'm really starting to get worried about Jacob. I asked if he wanted to come along and he just blew me off. I don't want him to be mad about me and Zack. Why would he? He said he didn't like me anymore, so why would he be mad or jealous? Why would he lie to me? Well I don't know, I will have to talk to him tomorrow or something.

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The girls came over early to help me pick out an outfit. I wore my nicest sun dress, white covered with little purple flowers. I wore my purple flats with them and we went to Wise's. We all, of coarse, got burgers and fries, then ice cream. We did some shopping in Collections By Marty. Then went to the library to see if there are any new books in. We didn't find anything, but that because we didn't stay long. Not that I wanted to leave early, somebody else was there. Zeke, my ex boyfriend. We dated for almost a year but he cheated on me with some slit he picked up on the street so we are through, forever. Anyway, we were all looking at some books, when the other girls said they were going to ask about a book series. I told them I would catch up in a second. I was looking at some books when I felt somebody put their arm around me. I turned around and it was Zeke.

"What the hell do you want, Zeke?" I whispered.

"Please give me another chance. I miss you so much." He got closer to me. I stepped back, almost knocking over some display books.

"Its been over a year. Just fuck off okay?"

"Why don't you just go out with me huh? You know you still love me. I still love you." He grabbed my hand and had a firm enough grip that I couldn't get away. I tried to jerk my hand away but when I did, he squeezed my hand harder.

"What did she say Zeke? Fuck off!" Natalie said.

"Oh and just a little FYI Zeke, I'm videotaping you right now. You know what that means right? This video will be all over Facebook, YouTube, and every other social networking sight you could possibly think of." Caitlyn said.

"You'd best get running along. You're gonna be popular real soon. But not in a good way if you know what I mean." Annalisa said, winking at him Zeke suddenly let go of me and ran out of the library. I looked at all my best friends.

"You know how awesome you guys all are?"

"Very." Annalisa said, laughing. We all got into a group hug and laughed. Then we started walking back to my house.

"God, Zeke is such a freaking creep." I said.

"He just wants a girlfriend. Obviously desperate. He's so pathetic. What a retard." Caitlyn said.

"Yeah. You know he doesn't deserve you Chloe. He doesn't deserve anybody. He's just a desperate stalker looking for girls to bang." Natalie said.

"Yeah I know. Thanks so much for helping me guys."

"You know we'd do anything for you Chloe." Annalisa said.

"Yeah. That's what makes you so amazing."

We all went back to my house and watched some movies on Netflix. Then Jamie texted me.

Hey I don't have to watch Henry anymore. (Henry is her little bro) You guys okay with another visitor?

Sure. We are just watching some Netflix. Come on over. :)

OK great! Be there in 25 minutes.

Kk

"Hey you guys, Jamie is coming over to watch some movies with us." They all just nodded because they were so into the movie that was on. I was happy she was coming because she talks to me more than the others. She always knows what to say. Even thought I haven't showed it all day, I'm very sad. I don't want my friends to worry about to me so I try to hide it. I've been crying myself to sleep because I just can't stop thinking about him.

When she comes over all my other friends are asleep. I put a blanket over them, turn off the tv, and go on my porch to talk with Jamie. Right when I sit down she starts talking.

"You're not very good at hiding your sadness."

"Huh?"

"Chloe, its pretty obvious you've been torn apart by this. You need to see him."

"I'm visiting him on August third. We are going to meet halfway, then drive the rest together."

"Really? Then why are you still sad."

"Because Jamie, I honestly can't live without this guy. I've said it before and I will day it again, I'm in love with him."

"Then why not go sooner?"

"His douche bag parents don't like me so he has to make it seem like I wouldn't be coming beforehand. I don't know why they hate me so much. His mom practically almost broke us up!"

"Really? How come?"

"She started naming off all the girls Zack has dated so far this summer right when she walked into us kissing on his bed."

"That's just messed up."

"I know. Why would she even think of doing something like that to him?"

"Maybe she just doesn't like him dating. It could be a family thing. She might think that since he's dating, he's already practically an adult, and she doesn't want to lose him."

"There's still no excuse for her to do something like that."

"True, very true."

Then we started talking about the visit. She made me let her help me pick out my outfits. Mostly dresses, all I wear are dresses, and I already had my bag packed. We went back downstairs and all my other friends were still sleeping, so we slept in my room. They took up the whole couch. We shared my bed, but I'm okay with that. I can't wait for the day I see him again.

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"I'm so glad your back! I missed you so much. I haven't kissed you forever! Come here."

He kissed me. I remember that amazing feeling every time our lips meet.

"Do you know how much I love you Zack?"

"How much?", he said with a smirk.

"This much!", I said making my arms open as wide as possible,"and then some more."

He grabbed me into a hug and we stood like that for a while. I nestled into his shirt and he carried me.