My Heart Beats For You

Chapter 10 I Miss Him So Much

June 24, 2012

The ride home was long. Not long just because I was in the car for ten hours, but because all I did was think about Zack. When we got home around six pm, we all unpacked and decided to just relax. Jamie was texting me but I told her I was really tired so we would have to talk the next day. I didn't sleep well though because I was still just thinking about Zack. He didn't text, call, or email me all night. Maybe he thinks I'm still mad at him? I mean, I still kind of am but I want to talk to him about it. Maybe he will tomorrow.

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I woke up at 11:30 am. Whoa! I really was tired! I only went to bed at 10:30! When I went downstairs, everybody was in the kitchen. Still in their pj's.

"Today can be a day to just relax.", my mom said. We had some cereal.

"Sounds good to me!", my dad said. My brother and I both nodded. I took my breakfast to my room and ate it in there. I looked at my bookshelf. Maybe reading will get my mind off of him? No, nothing will work. I suddenly wasn't hungry so I took the rest of the cereal in my bowl and dumped it down the sink drain, and turned on the food disposal thing. I turned it off and hid in my room, under my covers. About an hour later, I heard somebody knock on my door. I looked up and it was Jamie and Jacob.

"What are you guys doing here?"

"You weren't answering our texts or calls so we thought maybe something was wrong. Your mom said you were up here pouting about...Zack? Who's he?"

I looked at them and sighed. "My dream boy."

"NO WAY!", Jamie shouted.

"Yes way."

"Oh my gosh. What's he like? Is he super hot like the guy in your dream? Is he tall? How long have you known him?"

"Chill out with all the questions, just let me explain!"

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I told her and Jacob the whole story. They seemed really shocked that I actually met him. I started crying when I told her about what happened. She held me and it helped a little bit. Jacob didn't say a word. That made me wonder if he was jealous. Or maybe just so shocked that he's speechless. I know he used to have a crush on me, but I could never be with him. It would be way to awkward if we broke up. It could ruin our friendship.

Jamie hung out with me all day, trying to comfort me. Jacob ditched us because he said he had plans. My other friends came over too. Natalie, Annalisa, and Caitlyn. I never mentioned them before because I'm not as close with them as I am with Jacob and Jamie. It was just us girls. We hung out in my room and I told the rest about my story with Zack.

"So do you really think he's a player?", Annalisa asked.

"No. I think he was just having trouble dating like he told me. He wouldn't lie to me."

"What about college? How are you guys going to visit each other then? I'm sure a weekend isn't enough for you guys.", Natalie said.

"I honestly don't know. I haven't figured that out yet. He hasn't texted me all day though. I thought we were kind of OK."

"Maybe he's not sure if you guys are or aren't so he's waiting for you to make the next move.",Caitlyn informed me.

"That's what I'm doing though!"

"You might as well text him first.", Natalie said.

"Yes, I agree. Maybe even call him." Annalisa said.

"OK maybe later tonight." After that I changed the subject to girly stuff like clothes, and nail polish. I'm glad I have friends like them.

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I texted him first.

Hey. Are we alright or...?

I don't know are we? I thought that after that goodbye that we were but then I thought maybe we weren't. So I wasn't sure if I should text you...

That's what I've been doing too. Wondering whether we are OK or not.

We have to figure this out. call me?

OK