Finally Wanted ( Brendon Urie adopts )

chapter 9

I am waiting by the side of the stage wating for the ballad of mona lisa. "As some of you guys may know I adopted a daughter, Abby come here" brendon says. I walk out to screaming fans and the sound starts right away I am an awful singer but the boys wanted me to sing so I did. "He senses something, call it desperation
Another dollar, another day
And if she had the proper words to say
She would tell him
But she'd have nothing left to sell him

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

Whoa oh oh oh oh, Mona Lisa
You're guaranteed to run this town
Whoa oh oh oh oh, Mona Lisa
I'd pay to see you frown

Mona Lisa, yeah
Pleased to please you
Mona Lisa

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

Whoa oh oh oh oh, Mona Lisa
You're guaranteed to run this town
Whoa oh oh oh oh, Mona Lisa
I'd pay to see you frown

Say what you mean
Tell me I'm right
And let the sun rain down on me
Give me a sign
I want to believe

There's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for".

Holding out the last note I sucked but they still clapped. When I was little all I wanted to do was sing I had an amazing voice until my caretaker got tired of it. Upon more beatings she kicked me in the throat and more it completely changed my voice. After about 2 years the doctor said that it was completely back to normal but I didnt believe him. I still dont believe him but I would do anything for the guys. I walk backstage and get a text from Noah "that was amazing babe". I sit on the couch on my phone while I wait for the show to be over. Way less than a year ago I had dreamed of getting adopted and going to concerts and now I'm brendon uries daughter. The boys walk in sweaty and gross but happy. I find myself falling asleep as I feel myself being lifted in the air. I wake up around 2:00 a.m my phone exploding with texts from Noah. Texts that said how good I was but for some reason I wanted to cry. The bus was moving and there was no escape. I wanted to leave. That night I dreamt about flying and feeling free but it always went right back to that cliff where Noah was killed it became clear to me that all I was going to do to him was hurt him. Every time I had that dream it made me feel worse. I need to tell brendon about us dating but later.

I wake up on the bus. I don't even remember falling asleep I dont know where we are but all the boys are gone. I sit up and start crying but I dont know why. I never know why. Brendon and the rest of the boys walk on the bus I wipe my tears and act like it never happened. "Morning sunshine" brendon says "morning" "hey boys go bring back some donuts" brendon says as he comes to sit next to me on my bunk. "I heard you up last night and I can see your red puff eyes and I know your crying so what's wrong" he asks "I don't know" I say. "Abby-" I cut him off "BRENDON DONT YOU GET IT, IM NOTHING, IM A FUCKING JOKE A FAILURE" I yell "abby I know how you feel" he whispers "NO YOU DONT, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO FEEL WORTHLESS, LIKE  NOTHING YOU DO MATTERS, I FEEL LIKE THAT EVERY DAMN DAY. YOUR A STAR A LEGEND  PEOPLE ACTUALLY LOOK UP TO YOU DAD" tears fall out of my eyes. "But abby I do know, do you think i just started out big i had to fight and your right I dont feel worthless anymore but I used to. How do you think i felt when my parents kicked me out" I'm surprised he hasn't yelled yet "don't think for a second that I don't care, that dallon, Spencer, zack, Tyler, Josh, fall out boy, and the fans dont care yes there is going to be hate but that's ok because we all still care."

Brendons POV
we are arriving at Cincinnati ohio in 2 hours we will get there at like 4 am. Abby fell asleep she is curled up in a little ball I lay in my bunk and fall asleep as long as she is peaceful I am ok.

Abby POV
I dream but nothing good. It feels so real o wake up with am almost broken nose, the bruises I had all over my body, the same clothes I had on, and fresh cuts. All of the stuff I had when I got adopted. It was after the beating though that meant brendon was here. I have never had this dream before but I couldn't tell if it was a dream. Maybe all of the tour and the adoption was a dream and right now brendons looking for someone to adopt I get a redo. Before brendon knows all my baggage I could get a chance. I made sure my arms were covered as I walk down stairs slowly. All that goes through my head is "your not smart enough, your not good enough, your not enough.  I miss Noah he couldn't have been a dream right. I walk up to brendon and before I can say anything everything stops. Not disappears but freezes. I get pulled into blackness then I wake up on the bus I was basically mute. I take a shower and put on my dress the off the shoulder black up top and pink at the bottom with black butterflies on the bottom. I walk into the venue and sit in the dressing room and close my eyes as someone grabs my arm. I open my eyes to see my caretaker, as she grabs my arm and pulls me to the ground.

Guys I'm sorry for the short chapter and cliffhanger  but I have been so busy with sports so i'm really sorry guys.