Finally Wanted ( Brendon Urie adopts )

chapter 14

"Abby-" it's my mom standing in front of me my own mom."yeah" I say Brendon looking at me but I still look forward "my-my names Brittany and i-i'm your mom". I don't know what I expected to come out of here mouth but for some reason I'm still in shock. "Mom" I say tears starting to fall "yeah baby it's me" I cant believe it.

Brendons POV
Abby's crying and I want nothing more than to hold her but I have to let her be with her mom "me and Sarah will be right over here ok baby" I say walking to a table not to far away. "You ok babe" Sarah asks me "I think I don't know too be honest" I say "I may have just had her for almost 3 months but hell if I don't love her she is everything to me and I don't want Britney to take her away Sarah looks at me concerned "she wont because Abby wont let her".

Abby POV
Me and my mom sit together drinking Starbucks. A luxury most people get, but I never got close to.  I didn't have a mom to get it with let alone the money to get it the money I had was saving up for food, phones, and concerts the last 2 were my only escape though I had never been to a concert before. We have been talking for a bit but the one question that is on my mind "why" I ask "why what" in I'm surprised she doesn't know "why did you leave me because I was beaten for years torched brutally..... and raped by my own dad because you left me so why" I say tears start to come out of my eyes "I-I'm so sorry I-i loved you" she says "well if you loved me why'd you leave me" I say standing up and walking out. "Abby" Brendon yells running after me and grabbing my arm. I turn around angry, and crying "can we just leave.....please" I look at Brendon with a pissed tone and tears in my eyes "ye-yeah" he whispers. I turn around and walk to the car Brendon and Sarah following right behind "Sarah, Sarah wait" Britney yells "what" she says kinda mad "please don't leave I need my baby girl" she says. "Look you fucked up and shes not your baby girl shes Brendons" she turned and walk away. I get in the car crying and on the way home I don't say a word I look out the window the entire time we drive home but just.... like...... that... it all stops. I am shoved into a pit of darkness just as fast as I'm shoved in I'm shoved out. Its dark then bright I'm in the car blood all over me my bones feel shattered, everything is in slow motion. I see Brendon next me looking shocked and Sarah outside the car crying "dad" the word comes out in slow motion and my whole world seems to fall apart. I look over at Brendon again everything so slow as I see the tear drop from his eye. My eyes slowly shut with me having no control over it. I cant see anything but I can hear it all goes quiet and all I hear is my own heart beat it's slow, too slow but when It beats it sounds like a thousand drums clattering together even threw the cuts I could never hear my heart beat pound this loud I take it a sign that I might be ok. If I can hear the heart beat I'll be ok. It turns into the pitter patter of raindrops and pebbles then fade into heartbeat of a monitor. Still not being able to see all I can do is hear I hear Brendon next to me crying softly and Sarah just breaking down. I can't move but I can hear. I hear my mom "Sarah" Brendon stands up "no go away we just....we need to be alone right now" Brendon says and I think my mom walks away. Brendon sits back down and holds my hand. I guess they think I look like I'm sleeping because they began to talk "I cant do it Brendon I lost her once I cant do it again I know your closer to her and your her dad but I just-" she can't finish her sentence "I know babe" I remember when Brendon was sitting next to me in the car he was hurt, not badly but he was hurt he had blood running down his face but he didn't care all he cared about was me. He was sitting on my side of the car just upfront so it must have hit my door directly. The room goes silent they know they could lose me any second. Was the impact from that car that bad? Nobody talks, nobody cries, everybody thinks all I can do is lay here I rest but can't sleep. I feel my heart beat all over my body I know its mine because I can hear the deathly but somehow alive heart rate on the screen. I feel like everyone is just waiting for it to go I feel my heart pound in my finger tips and its such a loud echo in my head that it feels like a thousand dumps pounding out twice a second. The room is silent so I think about the orphanage it all just makes me so mad at my mom. I was in the hell for so many years because she was so selfish I was beaten by kids and adults, I was forced to cook and not get any food myself, I was forced to clean, forced to take care of all the other kids when I couldn't even take care of myself. I cut for years because of her I still cut I have wanted to die so many times because of her. All of this every single thing that happened to me is because she was to selfish to just walk away. I could have lived such a happy life no cuts, no drugs, and a wonderful family but she took that away from me because she didn't want to step away from my dad and she didn't want to step away form the drugs. Its all her fault and if she needed her baby girl then she wouldn't have left me  I NEVER want to see her again.

Brendons POV

My baby again. It feels like I've had her for years the three months I have had her isn't enough I need more time. Just give me more time. Please. I hold her hand and I Don't ever want to let go if I lose her- I can't I- I just can't. I see the cuts  on her wrist and I see the cuts on her legs everything. Sarah went home to get a few things and i'm hear alone. "baby girl" I say tears stated to come out of my eyes but heavy this time "why did you do it baby, the cutting, the pushing people away when you wake up just tell me just talk to me please baby JUST...just wake up. I can't do this with out you"

Abby POV 

"I can't do this without you " those words hit me hard. I'm sorry dad you know why I used to cut the new cuts are a different story. with my mom being around as soon as I found out that I was going to see her I felt i wasn't good enough and worthless that I just started to cut again. I didn't think he would ever see them. I try so hard to move my fingers just the slightest but nothing happens I want to talk to him and tell him that everything is okay but I can't.  "Brendon here I brought the diary too for the cuts maybe it says why" Sarah says I guess she went to the house, I want to go home. I just want to go home.

I'm really sorry guys but here this sucks but....