Finally Wanted ( Brendon Urie adopts )

Chapter 5

Abby's POV
Today I meet the band. Shit. Shit. Shit. That's all I can think. What do I do what do I where what do I say. "Ahhhhhhhhh" I scream wanting to just give up. "What's wrong?" Brendon runs in asking "nothing Its just I don't think i'm OK enough to be around the band plus in look retarded" I say as I point to the mirror. " Then change out of your pajamas" he says laughing "I mean all the time" I say rolling my eyes "get dressed come eat and they will be here at 4 then we will go to dinner deal?" "Deal" and he walks out the door. OK its 12 now so I have 4 hours I grab a towel and somehow find the shower I yell at Brendon and tell him that I'm getting in the shower and shut and lock the door I play some music but I woke up with a strained throat so I lost most of my voice and can't sing and Brendon said I'm not aloud to until its better. I think about stuff that I usely think about but this time a little different I think about how much Brendon cares and how for once my life is OK and how I really trust someone and how I can tell someone everything I cant even 100% trust Alex especially because of what he did the other night I was scared of him and I haven't talked to him since. I finish my shower and then get dressed I where one of the only nice things I have because at the orphanage we had to have at least one nice thing to wear. It's a white romper with long lace sleeves that for the most part hides my brusise and scars and instead of a romper that has pants this one had shorts so I put on a very colorful skirt that also hid my scars and brusies. I didn't like having no black on so I put on my black eye shadow along with black eyeliner. I also had shoes that were black wedges I dressed up occasionally when I want to. I go downstairs trying to be as quite as I can but the wedges are so loud to walk on the stairs with. "Wow you look nice" Brendon looks at me up and down "shut up" I say laughing  I eat 2 strips of bacon and go back upstairs. I check my scars and see if they are covered up enough. I'm scared of what they will think. I have 3 hours till they get here so I decided to take a nap. Today I will meet Dallon again and Spencer oh and I get to meet Zack. They all scare the crap out of me because I don't know them. What if they hate me I set a alarm and fall asleep to that thought. I wake up to my alarm at 3:50 I get out of bed and get my glasses as the door bell rings. I check my scars and bruises once again and I get a text from Alex. "Can we talk" I ignore it I honestly don't want to talk to him for a while if I didn't stop him he could have attacked Brendon yeah he's only 13 but he can do real damage just look at his dad after he hurt his mom that whole family is a mess and that's coming from me. I check my scars and bruises once again and start to walk down stairs and I don't see anyone. Their probably out in urie electric talking about band stuff they don't know about me yet so that should be fun. I go to get a glass of water because I just woke up from a nap and my throat still hurts when I hear laughing coming from behind me as it comes to a sudden stop I run upstairs be because I panicked I run to my room and sit on the floor "shit" just say aloud my phone is going crazy with texts from Alex. The text were saying "Abby I'm sorry please talk to me" or "I love you please" I send him back a text that says " well guess what of all the lies I have ever heard and trust me I have heard alot I love you was my favorite" and then he sends me " Abby you know I wouldn't hurt you" I feel the tears starting to form "but I don't know that anymore and you would have hurt Brendon if I didn't stop you I never want to talk to you again or at least until I figure this out until then don't text me or I will block you" I turn my phone off and start to cry. I put my head in my knees when Brendon walks in "abby what's wrong" he says as he comes to hold me. "N-nothing I'm fine I'll be down in like 2 minutes" I say with tears slowing reluctantly Brendon says "OK should I tell the guys then call you down" I shrug my shoulders "sure" Brendon walks down stairs. Today is the worst day for me to lose my voice. For the hundredth time I check my scars and bruises to make sure you cant see them through the lace sleeves and began to walk down stairs and a thousand thoughts race through my mind. What if they see how skinny I am you can see my ribs so clearly but I guess that's a good thing you can't see it that much with the romper though. What if they see my scares and bruises what will they think of me after that what if they tell Brendon to get rid of me. As I think about all of that Brendon calls up the stairs " OK Abby come on". Terrified but trusting Brendon I slowly start to walk down stairs not knowing if they know my past and not know if they know he adopted me. I start slowly down the stairs when I hit the middle of the stairs the boys come into view  with my skirt and romper I feel confident and insecure at the same time I want to show off and I also want to hide in my room and never come out. They look at me with confusion and turn towards brendon. "Guys this is my daughter" the guys stare in shock then Zack said "Brendon WHO did you have-" Brendon quickly enterups "adopted". I roll my eyes and laugh a little bit we all sit on the couch " you know I really don't know much about you this is a good chance for all of us" Brendon says. "Ask away" I say wondering what's going to happen "do you have a boyfriend" Dallon says "uhhh are you hitting on my daughter dallon". Brendon says "no I'm just wondering who we need to kill that is are responsibility" dallon says as spencer, Zack, and Brendon agree "no I don't I'm a loner" I say with my struggling voice rolling my eyes. We continue for about 2 hours and I feel way more calm around them but I still feel like I don't belong. "OK last question and this is a long explanation what's your story. Like how long were you in the adoption center and why" Spencer says. I gulp and decide to tell them but not about the beatings. "Well my parents did drugs and not just one they did them ALL and my parents were sometimes mean to me and would hurt me but one day at school I opend my mouth and my teacher called social services and they took me away I was in that place for years and was denied food and freedom in snuck out one night to sing at this restaurant and that's when Brendon found me and he adopted me". They all look at me with pity and worry but they don't even know the worst parts of it but Brendon does and that's all they need to know. We decided against going out and ordered a few pizzas like 30 minutes ago as the door bell rings Zack gets it and we sit down and eat we laugh about stuiped stuff and my sleeves falls up my arm without me noticing it. They fell back down but after everyone saw my arms. I then hear Zack say "BRENDON WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO!" I sit in shock of why someone who knows Brendon would think that he did this maybe I can't trust him. I start to cry and I run up stairs knowing what they know now because I heard Brendon start to explain it as I ran upstairs will they still except me or will they want nothing to do with me. I cry in my pillow when I hear a knock on my door I don't lift my head or say anything I don't what to talk to anyone. The door opens anyway but I kept my head in the pillow. A familiar voice begans to speak as it sits on the end of my bed "Brendon told us what happened with your arms and legs some from the panic attack, most from your caretaker". It was dallon I felt like I should say something but my head remained in the pillow "just know that were hear for you and Brendon will always protect you" I start to cry even harder if that was possible they still wanted me. There was still something holding me back "but dallon you don't get it my past defines me and it will forever the scars I have emotional and physical are to deep and they will never go away and everytime someone asks about them I will have to tell my sob story I may have a life with Brendon but not when all these fucking demons holding me back I can't trust anyone I cant even trust my self because of the fucking voices in my head saying that i'm a worthless piece of shit." I say standing up I feel my self began to have a panic attack I start to call for Brendon but no answer because it's to quite because today I just had to lose my voice so dallon starts to hold me up luckily my shoes were off so I start to try to run down stairs to get Brendon I stumble to get to him but once I do I fall in his arms. I didn't even care if there were people around me. I don't care if I was scared I couldn't trust him. I needed to be in his arms as everything starts to get blurry Brendon starts to sing a slower version of girls/girls/boys that calmed me down and Brendon takes me upstairs. As I calm down I look at Brendon and say "i'm sorry for everything all I am for you is a pain in the ass" as I say this I'm weak "Abby if you were a pain In the ass why would I be helping you why would I adopt you" Brendon says with a smile " the guys and I will be downstairs and there is pizza in the fridge if you want more when your ready. If you need anything the guys are spending to night and tomorrow we will get you set up on online school. " I smile at how much he cares I reply with a simple "okay"