To Mend Her.

Chapter 4.

We walk for a while until I stop to lay on the sand, placing my arms behind my head I stare up at the captivating stars. Hunter does the same beside me.

"Were you this quiet with Dylan?" He asks.

"He did most of the talking." I answer.

"Do you have a problem with me or something?"

"No, why do you ask?"

"Well, I've only known you for a couple of hours and in those short hours I get the feeling that you don't like me."

"How can I hate you when I hardly know you?"

"Sorry, it just seemed like you did."

We're greeted with silence.

"Now I bet you weren't this quiet with Dylan."

"What's it to you if I was quiet or not?"

"I want to talk, get to know you better."

"Later, right now all I want is silence." I close my eyes listening to the ocean waves.

I've missed this, coming to the beach. All of a sudden my phone starts vibrating.

'Be home by 11:30 for your medication.' Mom texted. I reply with a simple 'okay'.

"Is Dylan still texting you?" Hunter asks.

"No, it was my mom."

We both stay silent until it's time for me to go home.

"Ivan, I have to go home." I say once reaching him. 

"I'm a bit drunk Ronnie, you're going to have to call mom."

"I'll take her. I haven't drank at all." Hunter says.

"Can he take you home Ronnie?"

"Yes, I just want to leave already." I say getting impatient.

Ivan passes Hunter his keys and we go to the truck.

When he starts driving I start feeling different. My heart starts racing, my body is shaking, I'm also feeling a bit nauseated. That's when I broke.

"Are you okay Veronica?" Hunter asks with a worried tone.

"Don't call me Veronica!" I shout angrily.

"I'm sorry."

"Stop driving so fucking slow. I need to get home already."

He starts driving a bit faster, before you know it, we're in front of my house.

When I get off the truck, Hunter follows right behind me.

"You okay, Ronnie?" He asks, placing his hands on my shoulders stopping me from walking.

"Get away! Don't touch me!" I pull away from him a little too hard that it caused me to fall on the ground.

"What's going on?" I hear Arthur ask.

"Arthur help me! He's trying to hurt me!" I cry out loud.

"I wasn't. I was trying to help her, she seems off."

My mom comes to me, lifting me off the ground.

"Deep breaths, baby." She whispers in my ear.

"Fuck you and your deep breaths Marilyn!" I yell, running into the house and going to my room, locking myself in.

I start looking for my little escape.

"Damn it!" I yell when I don't find it. My stupid mother hides them from me all the time.

Going under my bed, I pull out my shoebox that's filled with random things. I proceed to take out the blade hidden in there. First, I check if the door is locked, which it is, afterwards I lift my shirt up and start slicing myself in the stomach.

After doing all that I feel myself calming down a little. The pain only lasts for so long until depression starts to takes over. It feels like you're in a dark cave that you can't escape from.

"Ronnie please open the door." My mom says from the other side.

"No mom. I need some time alone."

"Okay, but I want this door open in an hour."

"Fine." I reply while opening my window then make my way to the roof. That's where I like to go to look at the stars and pretend that everything is okay with me, but deep down in my gut I know I'll never be normal.

I stand on the edge of the roof. My house is two stories high and there's a metal picket fence surrounding it. I always stand here, contemplating on if I should jump or not. I wonder how my family would react if I were ever to commit suicide. I picture them crying over my grave like we do every time we visit my dad.

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Mom just finished giving me my medication.

"You feeling better?" She asks.

"Honestly no. The pills only make me feel worse."

"I wish I could take all your pain away Ronnie. It kills me to see you like this."

"One can only wish mom."

She hugs me tightly causing me to wince because of the cuts on my stomach.

"Did I scare Hunter away mom?"

"No, you only made him more curious about you. He's coming by tomorrow after school."

"Great, now I have to suffer through the embarrassment again."

"How'd you two meet anyway?"

"He's a friend of Ivan's."

"Where is Ivan?"

"At some stupid party, drunk."

"That kids been drinking a lot lately. I'll have to talk to him later."

My mom's been through a lot. With dad's death, my insanity issues, now she has to add an eighteen year old drunk son to her list.

"Mom, I love you. I know I don't show it that much because most of the time I'm in my room or I'm in a bitchy mood, but I want you to know I love you with all my heart. You're the reason I keep going. You're the reason I keep fighting through these things I go through."

She hugs me tightly and I hear her sniffle.

"I love you too, Veronica."  She says, placing a kiss on my forehead.

"And what did I tell you about the cursing?"

"Sorry."

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After taking a shower, I change into some pyjamas then all of a sudden my phone starts to vibrate on the night stand. I check to see who texted and I don't recognize the number, but open up the text anyway.

'Goodnight beautiful, see you tomorrow. ~Hunter.'

I smile lightly, then frown. A part of me didn't want Hunter to come because he's most likely going to ask questions as to why I went ape nuts and I don't want to tell nobody because it's beyond embarrassing, the other part of me was happy because Hunter wanted to see me again.