Komamura Sajin x Reader Fanfiction

Chapter 4

When news had broke out about the war, you were terrified. Not for yourself..for Komamura. You knew he was going to fight in the battle. They all were. Everyone was doing their best to protect Soul society. But you knew exactly how these kinds of battles ended. People were going to die.

As a kid growing up in the soul society, you had lost both your parents to the hands of a hollow. You had decided after that, you'd never watch the people you loved get killed. It was the main reason you became a reaper. When the battle between Aizen had ended you hoped there would be no more threats.

Unfortunately life hadn't been so kind, shortly after the Regai Uprising had started.

Thankfully there had not been to much casualties, thanks to Ichigo and the others. But it didn't stop there. Ichigo had lost his abilities and Ginjo had formulated a plan. Luckily Rukia and the other captains had gotten to him just in time. Once again they had defeated the threat.

Now there was Juha Bach and the Wandenriech Invasion to take care of. Another enemy, another war.

This time was different, you had a sickly feeling forming in your stomach. This one...was not going to end well.

All the captains had gathered to take their leave and assist in this battle any way they could. You should have felt a bit more comforted that even the head captain was going, but that only meant that this was a lot more serious than you initially thought.

Everyone was surrounding the captains and Lieutenants, basically saying their goodbyes. You stood with Iba and Komamura putting on a brave face as they spoke with the other members.

"Good luck Captain!"

"Be careful!"

"You guys are gonna beat them, you always do."

A lot of encouraging words were shared among the members as they laughed and cried alike.

Hisagi stood by your side, placing a comforting hand on your shoulder. You hadn't really said anything all day. You weren't sure what you could say. When Komamura had turned to you, a fake smile planted itself on your face.

"Don't get your butt kicked alright Taicho. " you laughed not looking him directly in his eyes. You just couldn't you knew your facade would break the minute your eyes met.

Komamura couldn't quell your fears, there was no telling what could happen.

He placed a hand on your head, rubbing it affectionate. No words were exchanged between the both of you, just the gesture. Your gaze was still firmly planted on the ground.

"It's time to go." Hitsugaya said as Komamura nodded.

Just like that.....his touch was gone.

Komamura turned giving one last farewell to his squad as he joined the others to leave.

You finally raised your head looking at his retreating form with regret.

"Don't.....leave...please..."

"Taicho..." you whispered.

Unconsciously your hands reached out to grasp onto him.

"TAICHO!!!" you screamed at the top of your lungs. Tears were pouring out of your eyes as everyone present froze in surprise at your outburst. You dashed off after him.

Komamura turned to you in shock. "(Y-Y/N)-"

"I LOVE YOU TAICHO!! P-PLEASE DON'T GO!" you cried running into his chest. You buried your face into his robes clutching unto him for dear life. A number of gasps were heard around you as the reapers watched the scene.

"Don't go...I don't want you to die... p-please.." you practically begged. Komamura was speechless. This entire time you had been terrified that you would lose him, yet you masked it, trying to be strong for him.

Hisagi wore a solemn look as you continued to sob pitifully. You had lost so much as a child, he couldn't remember the last time he had ever seen you cry, not since your parents died at least.

Komamura sighed kneeling to your height. He held you by the shoulders as he wiped the tears that stained your cheeks. Your orbs were glossy as you looked back at him pained.

"I can't abandon my comrades (Y/N), It's my duty as a reaper to defend the soul society." He reasoned. You knew what you were asking was selfish, but you couldn't help it. If something had happened to him...you weren't sure how you would survive.

His large palm held your cheek as he smiled at you. "I will come back to you...there is nothing that is driving me more than seeing your beautiful smile (Y/N). " A blush crawled its way unto your cheeks despite your best efforts to control it.

"You better come back." you laughed bitterly. He nodded, seemly nervous all of a sudden.

"I-I love you as well (Y/N)." he breathed. More tears seem to gather in your eyes at his confession.

With one last comforting hug he released you. Your were now kneeling on the ground looking up at him.

"Look after her for me... Hisagi." The dark haired male nodded at Komamura's request.

"I will sir."

"Be safe..Taicho...." you mumbled as he walked away from you. That was it. All you could do was await his return, your heart clenched painfully as he seemed to slowly disappear from your sight.

"Until next time.."