Bughead oneshots

I'm sorry I have to go

(A/N:This is inspired by a poem and this will all be in Betty's pov, enjoy)

**Suicide and self harm TW**

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  I'm not fine when I'm hurt

  "Jughead really? how do you forget our one year anniversary, and our date that let me remind you we have been planning for months now?" I can't believe he forgot, all because he's been spending all his time at the southside with some other girl he claims is just a friend.

  "This is that stupid girl Toni's fault you know that right?" He looks down. "I think we should break up Betty" he says. I don't answer. I feel the tears coming so I run, and run till I'm lost and hopeless. I'm very hurt,

But it's okay

Blood stains on my shirt

  I run till I'm lost, I found my self standing in the middle of the woods, both my fist clenched. I feel the blood pouring down my hand but I keep doing it. Eventually it burns and I look down at my bloody arms. It's everywhere, but I wipe it down on my shirt and I go home. I see that I got blood everywhere,

But it's okay 

Even if it hurts

  I can't continue. It hurts too much to think about going on. I never thought that I would be in the position, crying and almost dying because of a boy. It hurts too much but,

I know for a while it'll go away

When there's blood on my shirt

  I get up and head to the bathroom to clean my self up a little. I see that I got blood all over my clothes. I sigh and take them all off. I don't even bother on trying to get the blood of because,

I know it'll wash away 

Its okay I say, always, but it's a lie

  I'm not okay, but that's what I always say. "Hey you okay?" People ask me. I smile and nod "Yes I'm very much okay". If only they knew what I was going through, what It was like at home, what I'm going through with my ex-boyfriend Jughead and how much our break up hurts me.

Never in my life am I okay

Never in a lie I would say the truth

  I never say the truth, at least not anymore. I always lie. "Yes I'm fine thank you" In reality I'm not doing good. I'm still hurt because of the break up, I can't deal with myself anymore, I can't deal with knowing that the only good person in my life left.

Never in time would I waste the days

  I can remember summer last year. Me and Jughead were always on the road. We wouldn't waste time, in fear that we would miss a second of each other. We were always having fun, not having a single care in the world. We didn't waste our days together, we made sure we made the most of them. 

 A tear falls at the memory. But I'm leaving this world, it's better for everyone and it's better for me I get to be in peace. I decide to write a letter just to say sorry to Jughead for what I'm going to do. 

Dear Jughead,

  I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm sorry. I couldn't deal with this world anymore. My depression got the best of me. Thank you for all the fun memories we had together, and even though we aren't together anymore I wanted to say that I'm sorry and that,

I will always and forever love you

  I make my way to Jughead's trailer because I need to make sure he gets the letter. I knock at his door and he answers. "Betty?" I don't answer, I hand him the letter, he takes it but before he can say anything I left. I can see he opened it right there.  

 I get home and I go up to my room, I cry for a while but then I decide that I can't take it any longer. I run to my bathroom and grab a razor blade I have from other days. I cut all over my arms, but it's not working. I want this to end now, I want all the pain to go away and fast. I grab some old pills and swallow them all without water. I sit down because I'm starting to feel numb, then I see the door open Jughead is standing there. He looks at me and runs to me, but it's too late. I start to see black and I can only hear him. before I die I have to say this to him "I'm sorry Jug, I'm sorry that I have to go but the pain wouldn't go and I can't stay here anymore. I love you Jug. I'm sorry I have to go,

I hope that's okay."

  And with that I left. All the pain is gone. I feel free, I'm finally free.