Honesty

Lifeguard

10/20/2018 -gently edited 8/19/20

High above the waters

their eyes are watching me.

Cold and dark

and the beat of my heart 

feels too alive to be free. 

Their stares critic me,

dare me,

accuse me

as if they are the victim

 when I drown. 

I tell them in my head,

"not to worry,

I can swim;"

But some days I forget. 

Jesus,

teach me again. 

How to kick the devil's thoughts,

to push away the waves of the past.

How to hold my breath under water

and let it go in the air. 

But in case I fail,

if I fail,

when I fail;

I know there is a Lifeguard 

who wants to guard my life;

for I was already dead once,

but I was found and brought back to life. 

"The Lord will keep you from all harm- He will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." -Psalm 121: 7-8  

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