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so, as you can probably see, i've stopped updating this book. of course i still love jack, but not in the ways that i used to. when i started this book, he was a lanky little pale noodle of a boy who loved one direction and doing weird things. he has changed, and it took a large toll on me. i had watched jack since he started youtube, it was a large adjustment for me to watch him grow up. now, he has his lip pierced, he's tan, he died a bit of his hair, and him overall had changed so much since the beginning of the year. since his recent changes, i noticed a lot more people reading, voting and commenting. it hit me about a couple weeks ago - that people were reading my book because of the new jack. i wrote this book, i saw him as, the awkwardly tall and skinny jack, who was reserved and shared the same love of many things as i did. one who did what he wanted and didn't let anyone tell him what to do. now, he's become a lot more different and i, personally do not like these changes, but it is his life and i still appreciate all the things he has done for me. i still love jack, and it breaks my heart to say this but i can't love him the way i did when i started writing this book.

when i realized that more and more people were reading this book because of the new jack, i decided to end the progression of this story. i wanted people to imagine the jack that i loved, the jack that i wrote this story for. but all they were reading this for was the new jack.

hate me if you want, it took a lot of courage to write and publish not just this story, but also this part. if this get's any hate i'm deleting the story forever, because i can't stand people hating a book i fell in love with as well as wrote, just because i didn't feel comfortable continuing to writing it.

i am so sorry for this abrupt ending, thank you for coming a long on this journey of the OLD jack and nichola. i love all of you who were there from the start, and all of you that were here for the end.

this book was, and always will be, dedicated to jack matthew baran. thank you for bringing me some of the greatest people and memories a girl could ask for.

sincerely most,

zoë.

goodbye.

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