The Alpha King

Chapter 27

Everything felt hazy and everything hurt. My head was pounding and I couldn't open my eyes because it felt as if a heavy load rested on them.

My body felt limp and I couldn't move but my mind was sort of aware. I would be conscious for a few moments and then I'd fall into a deep sleep and the cycle would continue over and over again for I don't know how long.

Every time I'd drift into my deep sleeps I'd see Cadmers smiling face and feel the Wolfsbane course through my veins and I'd scream and scream, wanting desperately to wake up and see something other than pitch black. It felt as if I was trapped in a nightmare unable to escape or find a way out.

But just when I felt as if I was on the brink of utter darkness a light would guid me back and I'd feel safe and warm. I didn't know how it happened or why but it did and what ever it was it became my life line. I clung onto it with everything I had. It was the only peace I could latch onto.

I would hear complete silence sometimes and then I'd hear raised voices, angry voices. Sometimes the voices would argue and sometimes I'd hear crying. But one voice stuck out amongst them all and it was musical. It would constantly be there always reassuring me, begging me to heal and "come back, come back" it would tell me to fight and that it loved me. Then it would grow sad and whisper that it was "sorry, so very sorry " and it pained me even more to hear it sound so defeated and broken. Those were the times that I'd really fight, it made me angry to hear it so saddened.

So I fought and I fought until the weight on my eyelids lifted and I managed to open my eyes. I tried to wiggle my fingers and after some time they actually moved!

I realised I was on my back which didn't hurt as bad as I remembered it did and saw a white ceiling. Wait it wasn't just a white ceiling it also had glow in the dark stars and a moon. I was in my bedroom?

Just then I remembered my exhausting walk home and collapsing just before I could reach the sliding door but after that everything was a complete blank. I don't know how long I was asleep for or how I got here or what day it was.

I didn't know a lot of things it seems.

I was brimming with questions and I felt weirdly disorientated.

I tried to sit up but I couldn't move without something hurting and my body felt weak as if I hadn't used it or fed it in weeks.

But that wasn't the only thing preventing me from moving. I noticed a tanned, muscular arm slung around my waist holding me captive.

Just then I heard deep snores and followed the arm with my eyes to who it belonged to.

I took in a sharp breath as I saw Xavier's sleeping form snuggled into my side. He faced me and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.

He should of looked peaceful sleeping but he didn't. He had huge bags under his eyes and he had stubble which meant he hadn't shaved in who knows how long. His eyebrows were scrunched up and I wanted desperately to smooth them out. He didn't look like his normal self at all. Gone was the prim and proper Alpha King. He looked so broken and it broke my heart.

I didn't realise it but I started crying and it wasn't a soft cry, oh no it started out as a sob and turned into a full blow ugly cry. I could feel my body shaking with the force of my sobs and then Xavier sprang up as if someone had electrocuted him.

He immediately threw half his body over mine and his face was so close to mine our noses touched.

He searched my eyes frantically and without saying a single word he buried his face in my neck and held me tight to his body. His touch was tight but he managed to be gentle at the same time as if I would break apart in his arms.

We stayed like that for what felt like hours, neither of us moving or speaking. He only moved to the side and grabbed a glass of water which he held out for me. I greedily drank it all and then another glass. The entire time he just watched me still covering half my body with his. After he was satisfied that I was satisfied he went back to hugging me, his face nestled into the crook of my neck.

I didn't expect him to be hear when I woke up let alone in my bed holding me.

But by the Moon Goddess was I grateful. His scent just managed to calm me down slightly and after a while my shaking stopped and slowly my sobs turned into tiny sniffles.

I realised I soaked his t-shirt with my tears and I don't know why but I softy said, "sorry."

He picked his head up from where it was tucked into my shoulder and looked at me confused. I gestured to his white t-shirt and he looked down at it then back up at me, a sad smile playing on his face.

He reached for my face and he lightly touched my cheek with his fingertips.

"I should be the one saying sorry, Victoria." He said. Closing his eyes, he rested his forehead on top of mine.

"You have nothing to be sorry about." I whispered back. He jolted up from on top of me and looked at me with disbelief and slight anger.

"No-nothing to be sorry about?! Victoria I let you down, I did not find you in time and I-I let you get taken! I have everything to be sorry about!" He said looking at me as if I had lost my mind.

Cadmer said he'd do this, he said Xavier would eat himself up with guilt but it wasn't his fault at all. I know Xavier would of done everything in his power to find me and I don't blame him, not for a second.

I had so much to tell him but I didn't even know where to start and I didn't have the energy for his reactions to everything I would tell him, especially his reaction to finding out about Adams betrayal. Gods he is going to loose it.

I was beginning to feel tired again and I just wanted to close my eyes  and have Xavier hold me, not be angry at me.

"Xavier I don't blame you for anything." I said as my eyes started to flutter close. He was about to say something when I cut him off.

"Please just hold me. I promise we'll continue this conversation. I just don't have it in me to do so right now." I yawned and his face softened, he sighed and moved so he was next to me, his arm went around me and that was when I drifted into a sleep without any nightmares for once.

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