The Alpha King

Chapter 59

Xaviers words confused me, however I remained silent because I knew he wasn't done speaking.

"I was scared for a moment. I had been thrown off kilter and then slowly the forest began to reappear but it was different. Everything was glowing, in a way. My surrounding were almost luminous and as I looked up at the sky the moon was so close. I thought I could merely reach up and touch it. The stars were oddly bright, almost blinding.

When I thought it couldn't get more bizarre than that a woman appeared from behind the glowing trees. She wore a dress that looked as if it were made of a thousands stars. I knew immediately who she was and fell to my knees. It was the Moon Goddess."

I sucked in a breath.

"The Moon Goddess?" I asked bewildered. Xavier nodded, his eyes far away.

"Yes, she told me to rise and said, ' King Xavier Decesare of my werewolves, I have come to warn you. There will be a Great War during your reign, one that will either end in peace for the werewolves once and for all or bloodshed until the werewolf race is extinct. Secondly, and most importantly..."

Xavier paused, "At that point I was in shock and couldn't believe my ears and when she said that there was something else even more pressing than the fate of the werewolf race, I though she was lying somehow. There  couldn't be anything worse. I was wrong."

I gulped and took ahold of his hands. I intertwined our fingers, squeezing tightly. The look on his face filled me with dread. I couldn't disagree, what could possibly be worse than the fate of the werewolf race?

Xavier looked at me and swallowed hard.

"Xavier, tell me please," I said gently. He looked so distraught.

"She-she said," he took a deep breath, looking away from me. I held onto his hands tighter.

"She said that my mate would be blessed with a powerful gift unlike anything the world has seen." At this my eyes grew as wide as saucers.

"When I met you and you didn't seem to posses any sort of power I thought that she had lied but-but we know now that you have been blessed." It didn't seem as awful as he was making it out to be and yet he still looked so torn. He wouldn't even look at me.

"Xavier, what's so bad about that?" He didn't reply for a long time. We stood there in silence. The heat of the magical greenhouse making me sweat. The flowers all around us felt overwhelming as the silence spread.

Xavier finally said, "That wasn't the bad part. She said that your power...damn it Victoria, I shouldn't be telling you this! Not now when you're still so new to it and-and I don't want to scare you! I don't thi-"

I immediately pulled his hands towards me and with it he was pulled closer into me. We were but a hairs brush away.

"Xavier enough, tell me what she said. I can handle it." I said it as sternly as I could. Trying desperately to not let him see how his panic was making me beyond anxious. Xavier never got like this. It scared me and I knew whatever left his mouth next would scare me even more.

"Promise me that you won't take it to heart. I love you and I trust you and I believe in you." As he said this he looked down at me, releasing his hands from my own, he stroked my cheeks.

"I promise," was all I could get out.

"She said that your power would either be our greatest weapon or it would kill everyone on the battlefield and even further, myself included."

"What," I stammered, my heart was hammering wildly inside of my chest. It droned out everything.

"What," I repeated.

Xavier stood deadly still.

"Victoria yo-"

I pushed him away from me and stumbled back.

"How-how could you not tell me this? How could convince me to wield it and use it and try to control it?" I whispered in disbelief. When I looked at him he was standing where I had pushed him, his arms slack at his side. Guilt slapped all over his face.

"How could you keep this secret from me mere days before we march into battle? How Xavier? How?!" I yelled now. He remained silent, his head bowed.

My mind was reeling and then something struck me.

"You knew didn't you. You knew it in the clearing in that moment and you left because of it." Xavier snapped his head back up at me.

"I did but I also left because of all the other reasons I told you. I went and searched of ways that could maybe help you. I wanted to help you! I still do!" He sounded as if he was almost pleading with me to see his side of the story.

"I have forgiven you for all your lies in the past but this time...this time  I won't forgive you." I swore and shook my head and looked at him, pain filling my voice.

"I-I didn't lie to you. I wanted to protect you and I didn't even know if you had any sort of power until then and even then I wasn't too sure. Please Victoria you can't hate me for this." He took a step closer towards me and I took one back. I didn't want him anywhere near me. Funny how only moments ago we couldn't get any closer to each other and all I wanted was more of him. I pushed the thoughts of our love making far from my mind. His betrayal poisoning those thoughts now.

"You know I could never hate you Xavier but right now it feels as if I almost can."

He opened his mouth to say something when I cut him off angrily.

"Were you ever planning on telling me that I could potentially kill thousands and my own mate? That I had that kind of power and that that outcome is likely to happen seeing as either we live or we fucking die!"

"I-I was...I think but you were already so stressed about using it and controlling it! I didn't want to have to give you more pressure and knowing something like this would have driven you crazy."

"It probably would have Xavier but I would have been given more time to try and control it or decide what to do but now the war is practically at our doorstep and NOW is the time you decide to tell me my fate! You should have told me this months ago even before my so called power was confirmed. I should of had the right to know." I was so angry and by the time I had finished yelling at him I felt so deflated.

"I had the right to know," I whispered more to myself than him but he heard it all the same.

Everything felt too claustrophobic, this damn greenhouse, the flowers, the heat, him. I could scarcely breath. I needed to get out of here and I needed to get out of here now.

Without sparing him a glance I went straight for the door which was unfortunately behind Xavier. He grabbed my arm when I passed him and a part of me wanted to rush to him and let him hold me and tell me I could never kill anyone but the other part...The angry, torn part that remembered him telling me how I could never hurt anyone and realising it was all a fat lie because deep down he knew there was a fifty percent chance I very well can, won.

"Don't Touch me," I snapped and yanked my arm out of his grasp. He didn't say anything. He didn't grab me again and hold me in his arms. He didn't come after me either.

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