Death Of Me - Ryden (Finished)

58.

I was breathing heavily when I made a stop in front of Ryan's window.

I can't avoid him forever and I guess I need to talk to him about this event.

So I climbed up the window, which was opened fortunately. Maybe he did it on purpose? Maybe he was already sitting in his room, desperately waiting for my return.

Dream on, Brendon, you fucked up.

Yes, I did fuck up. I just hope that he'll forgive me.

Before stepping inside the room I took a look inside and spotted a sad Ryan laying on his bed with his headphones on. He just stared at the small phone in his hands lost in his thoughts.

I was about to take a step into the room, but I noticed the dried tear streams on his cheeks.

Did he cry? Over me?

It broke a little piece of my heart when he sobbed and a single tear rolled down his left cheek.

"Ryan", I mumbled, eventhough he couldn't hear me.

I carefully took a step inside, causing Ryan to look up. He immediatly flinched aside, his eyes widening. He wiped his tears away and looked on his phone again.

"What do you want?", he asked, more hissing.

"I wanted to talk", I simply said, standing in front of his bed.

"About?", he asked, still not looking up.

"Can I sit down?", I asked, causing him to nod and move aside, so I sat down next to him.

"So what do you wanna talk about?", he asked.

"Uhm", I began, scratching the back of my neck, "it's about Mrs. Jensen."

"Mhm", he made, as if he didn't care.

"Ryan, come on! I'm sorry!", I said, causing him to finally lift his head to look into my eyes.

His eyes were full of sorrow and sadness and I thought my heart was breaking slowly. The warm brown of his eyes, looking like honey turned into a cold, lifeless brown.

And all of this just because of my stupid action.

I wanted to stand up and run away from here, so I'll never have to see this eyes again, but I stayed.

"What about Mrs. Jensen?", he asked, ignoring my last sentence.

"I know who her father is", I said.

"And...?", he asked.

"Its Mr. Hollow", I said, "she held tsuki in her arms and I asked where they know each other from. She said it's her father's cat and we know that tsuki is Mr. Hollows cat. Then everything was so creepy for me, so I ran away but she yelled something after me, that I can't forget. She said 'Don't just concentrate on the things that seem obvious to you'."

Ryan looked me in the eyes, his expression shocked.

"So, they are working together?", he asked.

"I think so."

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I fucked up math, I got a D.... badadammmm

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