A journey

I

This journal has seen my roller coaster ride for the year 2018. I have neglected it for a while because of the responsibility of work and home. Today, as I lay in bed, I urged myself to write the next entry. I searched high and low for a suitable title. I could not find any. I began to reflect and it just occurred to me that the best title for this entry would be "I". The very alphabet which could represent me. Before going further like always, I began my search on the word I which is also a consonant. I need better understanding of the word I or the alphabet I. Well thank you to the advancement of technology information is easily obtained. According to Wikipedia this ninth letter of the Latin alphabet may be originated from the Pheonician alphabet. It has evolved it self and used for many centuries by different dynasty. Wow a simple alphabet also experience change. Amazing right!

Look at the word "I" in the picture above. To me it is a magnificent alphabet. Why? Just look at the alphabet. The pillar is strong and sturdy with a stable roots that enable it to shoulder additional weight without hesitation. It is a proud alphabet and consonant. No wonder a lot of leadership and management gurus now asked to compromise and instead of saying I it should now be we. I am agreeable to that thinking to a certain extend. Why? I belief the concept is very situational. There are times you are to use we but there are times you just need to be self centered in order to ensure that your reach the goal you aim for in your personal and professional life. No one other than those who love you will support you through thick and thin. I love everyone who has been there for me through out my journey. my heartfelt gratitude and unconditional love to all.

So plain and simple Who am I?

I am a child conceived out of love, which later become a thorn of that love

I am child who has to rise from the ashes of broken marriage and betrayal of trust

I am a child who was lost, always searching for a hand to guide and love me

I grew up and become the actress of the world

No one is able to see my vulnerability and low self esteem

I lay in the comfort of that cocoon i build for myself, Only a few have managed to enter that sanctuary

I trust and gave love easily, However, the trust has been betrayed many times

I crumbled and cried, I was in despair, I was losing hope and faith

Never the less, I know that I am lucky

No matter how many times I fall

I was and will be rescued by unconditional love of individuals who genuinely love and care

Some has surpassed me but others are still here with me

I am renewed and i rise again, reborn like a phoenix

Now as I approached my golden age, I am counting my blessing

For now i know that I am never alone and will not be alone

For now I know and feel the unconditional love of Allah and my love ones

For now I understand that perseverance will bear fruits

For now I know that I am sturdy with strong roots just like the letter "I"

For now I know I am worthy person who deserve to be love and cared for

Thank you to all who has unconditionally love me and support me, i am forever in debt to you

For you with the permission of Allah are the reasons that my heart is warm with love

and that love has give me the strength to stand tall and strong today

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