Personal Soldier (Nathan Sykes Fanfic)

Personal Soldier (Nathan Sykes Fanfic) - Ch.21

Cold air started to whisp past my arms, causing me to shiver. I pulled the thin bed covers over me and turned over, finding extreme warmth radiating from the other side of the bed. I snuggled closer to it, before realising it was a person laying beside me. My eyes flew open and I was faced with bright green eyes, filled with amusement. “Mornin'” He smiled and then chuckled, causing a vibration through me as I had my head resting on his chest. I jumped back to my side of the bed, burying my face into the pillow and envoloping myself in the sheets. “Sorry” I said, though it came out in a barely audible mumble as my mouth was covered by the pillow. He laughed at me and turned on his side, pulling me back into him and wrapping an arm around me. I tried pulling away, pushing him with my hands, even though all I wanted was to stay snuggled up next to him. “Would you stop it, you're freezing” “No I'm fine ...” I disagreed, not even believing myself. He raised an eyebrow and gripped me closer, he was stronger than I thought. “Will you stop being impossible ... good God!” He laughed. I gave up the struggle and relaxed my arms in between his chest and mine. I couldn't lift my head to look at him, so I hid my face in the crook of his neck. Listening to his heartbeat and his breathing, which was the only sound that filled the room.

He started humming and playing absentmindedly with me hair. I didn't have anything to say ...... well actually I had a million and one things to say, but I couldn't. After last night, I didn't want to upset him or make things awkward ..... or rather more so. He took his arm from around me and moved down further on the bed, putting his forehead against mine, forcing me to look at him. I felt his breath against my skin and his fingers dancing up and down my arm, leaving goosebumps behind. He grinned, “You gonna stop talking to me now, huh?” I quickly shook my head to which he chuckled. “This about yesterday?” I paused. If I say it was he could be heartbroken, knowing I couldn't say I loved him too. If I said it was something else, he might be worried and push me to find out what's wrong. I hesitantly nodded. He didn't look sad or angry though, more content...

He shrugged, “You could just forget what I said.... It won't bother me .... In fact I'd kinda rather it, at least then you'd talk” He smiled. I didn't know if he was hiding hurt or if he was honestly happy. He started humming again and pulled back to bring his finger to my cheek. I finally just said something, tired of the staring and the silence. I pulled his hand away and made him rest it on my waist. “You're taking this .... really .... weirdly ....” I didn't quite know how to put it, he smirked. “What d'you mean?” “I don't know much about relationships and shit-” He chuckled, probably remembering our conversation in the car yesterday. I sighed. “-but if someone says they ... love you ... uh ... don't you kinda ... expect it, um ... back?” I sounded unsure and probably looked confused and embarassed that I had to talk about it. He just smiled, he kept smiling. “Well ... yes, I guess so .... but you're not good with emotions ... I get it-” he shrugged. “-you're not ready ... you're not ready ... it's fair enough.” he shrugged. “You make me feel like shit sometimes y'know?...” I let my head fall back against his shoulder and he laughed, his arm going around my back again.

“Uh ... why?” “Cause you go around being all 'perfect' and I'm here worrying about breaking your heart or upsetting you....” “I'm a big boy Kit-Kat .... I'll live if I get hurt every now and then .... wasn't it you who said that yesterday? .... work through pain and all that...?” “Hmm....” I snapped my eyes open and pulled back to look at him. “Happy Birthday ... by the way” He laughed at my attempt to change topic. “Well thank you, .... where's my present?” I thought about it before jumping out quickly from the bed, he looked confused as his hand fell back onto the bed. It was like bring in a fridge once I'd stepped out of his embrace, so I pulled on my jumper. “I' ll get you breakfast and bring it to you” He smiled and nodded, sitting up. “I won't say no to food, you know me...” I nodded back and grinned. I reached for the room keycard and looked for my phone. “Oh you left it in the car ... I think...” Nath put in noticing I was searching for something. I narrowed my eyes at him. “Well thanks for going to get it for me .... yesterday..” “Oh no problem” He joked as he went to the bathroom and locked the door. “Little ....” I mumbled, making my way out of the room and downstairs. I pulled my hood up over my head and descended the stairs.