Infatuated

seven. (bulimia warning)

Warning. This chapter has dialogue relating to eating disorders and obesity. If you are sensitive to that, stop reading before Katalina goes to Wendy's. If not, keep reading.

I parked my car in the drive way and I head inside giving Cara her grenadine. She thanks me for it and I go upstairs to start on my homework. Blah. Blah. Science. Blah. I get done with my science, cal, and history but now my stupid English AP teacher is making the whole class write a novel. So I open my computer and start writing. My creative energy is flowing and I can just feel it rushing through my veins. It. Was. Fantastic. I get done with the first 5 chapters of the book which was the assignment and I save it to my computer so I can open it in class.

After I was done with my homework I washed off the makeup I had on my face, and that's when I get a FaceTime call from the one and only Matt Champion. Of course I answer it and when I do, I hear "Hey, beautiful." I couldn't help but smile. "Heyyy" I say back in a playful manner.

We talk about our days and then he brought up his ex, Jade. "So, Jade has been hitting my line up. I don't even know how she is cause I blocked her?" He says just rambling on to me about her. It just makes me mad how someone can hurt Matt like Jade did. "She wasn't good for you then and she's not good for you now. Trust me, you should block her." "Okay." Matt says.

We change the topic we talk about stupid things until I had to go to bed. "Goodnight my love" Matt says in which I reply "Buenas Noches, Mi Amor." I end the FaceTime call and fall asleep.

Skip to Thursday around 4:00.

I had got out of school again but this time Garson asks me for a ride home because his car is in the shop. I agree and he hands me $10 for gas. We hop in the car and go straight to Garson's house. I drop him off and I give him a hug. Right before he enters his house I honk the horn to scare him/ tell him I love him and he goes inside.

As I was driving home, I was passing the skatepark to see a familiar figure there. I decided to park my car and take out my board so I can skate with Matt. I walk into the skate park and I see Matt kissing another girl. My heart just drops which causes me to drop my board and my eyes start to tear up. Matt looks at me as did everyone else when I dropped my board and he comes running up to me. Before he could speak to me I run into my car and I take my board with me. And I leave.

I stop by Wendy's before I go home. And I sit in the drive thru line waiting to order the entire menu. I used to be really fucking fat and when night's like Sunday turn into days like today it makes me want to eat. Eating used to be my coping skill until people kept telling me what was wrong with my body. So I tried diet and exercise and when that didn't work I threw up any food I ate. I recovered from bulimia but I still have relapses to this day. I order a spicy chicken sandwich with a large fry and a big ass chocolate frosty. And I get my food and go home.

I get home and I turn on Titanic and start eating and crying. After that I threw up. I don't know how to cope with this at all. I honestly thought that I loved Matt. I mean I've been in love with Matt for 2 years almost 3 and when I actually have a moment with him and when I actually thought my dreams might come through. They crash and burn. I go upstairs and take off my makeup and cry myself to sleep.

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A/N

Hi guys, so I'm sorry that this was such a sad chapter. I've been going through some things and I've been struggling with my eating disorder more than ever right now. But I wanted to inflict some drama and sadness into this chapter so the chapters coming up have more of a base to be built off of. Trust me this book is going to get better and happier. And for anyone who is struggling with bulimia or any type of eating disorder, know you are not alone and it's okay to get help. I am here for you and if you ever want to talk to someone my dms are open. Again, thank you so much for reading this so far and I'm sorry if you're disappointed in this chapter. I have schoolwork to do so, goodbye.