Self Destruction Is Such A Pretty Little Thing

Chapter 4

It was 9pm , me and Jessica were sat downstairs,p.js on watching films and drinking tea.

"So how was it hanging out with your idol then?" She asked giving me a wink

"Jessica it was nothing serious, we went to a restaurant, sat down, had lunch and talked. If I'm honest I don't even know why he asked me to go. Im just another fan and that's it"

"He probably thinks you're different" we both giggled. " no but seriously, what did you guys talk about?"

" well, he asked me to tell him about myself, and then he asked me why I didn't live with my parents" I gave a slight sigh, Jessica just looked at me with sympathy in her eyes.

" did you tell him?"

"Yeah, I started crying, I didn't want to but I always do you know?"

"Yeah...so what did he do when you started crying?"

"Well he just said he don't like seeing people cry and told me to smile, I did. And when he dropped me back off he said if you ever need someone to talk to ring me and he gave me a quick hug" she looked at me, a smile planted on her face and once again her left eyebrow was raised.

"Oooo"

"Oh shut up Jess" she just sat there laughing, like she normally does. " he probably says that to every fan to make them feel better"

"I guess" we both went back to watching the film. Jessica had suggested that we watched white chicks, as it has been our favourite film every since we was young.

"Aaaaaa!!" I jumped from the scream Jessica produced

"What what!?!" I asked, concern in my voice

"This is my favourite part!" She looked at me then back at the screen and then back at me. I tried my best to put an annoyed face on but I just couldn't do it. No matter how stupid she may be, I still loved her...after all she is my bestfriend. I ended up laughing along with her.

"Belle?" The film was now over and we was both in the kitchen washing and drying up, I was washing while Jessica was drying.

"Hmmm"

"What's that?" She asked while nodding her head towards my wrist. Shit. I told her I was gonna stop this. The truth was its hard. You can't just stop. I decided to play dumb, which obviously didn't work.

"What's what?"

"Annabelle! You told me you was going to stop!" I sighed and dryed my hands, went and sat on a stool with Jessica giving me a look as to say 'I'm disappointed with you'

"I can't just stop though"

"Yes you can"

"No I can't Jessica, you would know if you went through what I have been through. You don't have depression, you didnt self harm everyday. You don't know how much I've tried but I can't stop Jessica. I CANT!!" By now I was in tears. I put my head in my hands and just sat and cried.

"Belle, belle I'm sorry" she came over to me and gave me the biggest hug she has ever given me. I returned the hug, I couldn't stay mad at her, she was the only person who was there for me.

"I'll tell you what, come sleep in my room tonight with me, don't want you on your own when your in a state like this" I just looked up and nodded. " but first..can I see..you know" I understood what she ment, I held out my wrist and she gently took ahold of it. As she studied my wrist I seen a few tears run down her cheeks. She then grabbed my hand and we made our way upstairs.

"Wait hang on" I ran into my bedroom and grabbed the teddy that was sat on the desk. By the time I got to Jessica's room she was already in the bed,she looked at the teddy in my hand and smiled. I slowly walked over to the bed and got in the opposite side.

"Thank you for being there for me when I needed some one Jess"

"It's ok Belle, what are friends....best friends for" I smiled as she turned of the lamp and pulled the covers over us. I cuddle my teddy bear closer to me, but in my mind I wasn't cuddling a teddy bear, I was cuddling my parents.

"I miss you" I whispered, so Jessica couldn't hear and blew a kiss towards the window but made sure my hand was pointing up towards the night sky

Ok guys chapter 4 is here..I wanted Jessica and Annabelle to have a good best friend moment. Oh and I would just like to say R.I.P to Robin Williams and amazing actor/comedian. Anyway hope you guys liked this chapter, sorry it's short. Love you MWAH!!!<3