Self Destruction Is Such A Pretty Little Thing

Chapter 24

----------Ben's P.O.V----------

The rain came down heavy, soaking everyone around us. All I could hear was sobbing as I slowly watched her coffin being lowered into the ground. How could I let this happen? Why did I not save her? Just knowing I would never see her face or hear her voice again in person is killing me.  The priests voice was just a mumble, I couldn't concentrate, I slowly sank to my knees. I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks.  A hand was placed on my shoulder and it started to shake me slighlty. I just ignored it.

"Ben"

"Ben!"

"Ben!"

"Ben, wake up man!" I opend my eyes to see Cameron staring at me.

"What?" I asked in confusion. I looked around, I was lying in my bunk on the tour bus.

"You where dreaming, or should I say having a nightmare by the sounds of it!" I just gazed up at him, I had no idea what to say.

"I'll go get you a beer!" He said whilst slowly walking away. I swung my feet over the side of the bunk and sat up. Rubbing my face with my hands,I thought about the dream I had. Why did I have it? Maybe because I felt bad for leaving her. It pains me to know that she could be doing anything to halm herself I wouldn't have any idea she was doing it. I sighed and made my way into the main part of the bus.

------Annabelle's P.O.V--------

"So I was thinking about getting a job!" Jessica said.

"Oh really, where?" I asked

"Meh..I don't know, maybe starbucks. I walked past them the other day and there was a 'Help wanted' sign on the window"

"Since when did they put a sign on the window?"

"Me have no idea!" It had been two weeks since the boys left for tour, it wasn't boring as people would say cause I had Jessica, and plus we would skype/text/call each other every day. But I did miss not being able to be physically with them. I missed Ben the most, I misssed his hugs and the way his lips felt on mine. And to top it all off, we still had to wait three more bloody months to see them.

"I bet she's bloody lying, she stole the ring her face says it all!" Jessica screamed at the t.v. we were currently watching Jeremy Kyle, I thought it was a good show, Jessica watched it for the arguments.

'This test says your a liar love!' came from the t.v

"I KNEW IT, LIAR!" Jessica screamed from the top of her lungs and jumping on me. God she was annyoing but hilarious. The jumping was getting too much for me thought so I did the right thing, I pushed her onto the floor and she fell face first, causing me to burst of laughter.

"Not funny!" she exclaimed from the floor "That bloody hurt!"

"Oh hush up, it didn't hurt you that much and besides, you have done worse to me!"

"That is very true!" We both looked at each other and giggled. "Right, I'm going to get dressed and head to starbucks, you coming or can I trust you on your own!" I glared at her. This was getting ridiculous, not being allowed anywhere on my own, IM 19 FOR GODS SAKE.

"I'm not a kid y'know!"

"Yeah but last time you was left on your own you ki.."

"That was One time Jess!"

"Was is Annabelle? was it really"And with that she left and made her way upstairs. My eyes stayed in the direction she went in before I turned them back to face the t.v

------------James' P.O.V----------

Ben had been acting weird since he woke up, luckily we had a day off today so it wouldn't put more stress on him. Cameron, Danny and Sam had gone out somewhere and me and Ben were left on the bus.

"Ben, you alright?" I asked while taking a seat next to him, he paused the video he was watching on his laptop and looked at me.

"No!"

"Wanna tell me whats up?" He sighed and sat up.

He explained to me about the dream he had, and I'm honest if I had a dream like that I would be acting how Ben was. Damn Ben must've fallen hard for this girl. But I knew Ben and it just wasn't this one thing that was bugging him.

"Is that all?" I asked raising my eyebrow.

"No, ever since we have been on this tour there had been this fan and I have seen her at every show, every signing and it's freaking me out...ALOT!"

"Thats normal though, fans do like to see us alot"

"Yeah I know, but she looks like Annabelle, the only difference is that she had brown hair And her name is Anne!"

"You're obviously missing Annabelle alot, I know how to solve this!" I think I just came up with an amazing idea. GO JAMES!

"How?" He asked

"Well.....!"

------Annabelle's P.O.V-------

"Did you get a job?" I asked as Jessica as she walked in.

"MOMMA GOT A JOB WOOOOO....they made the wrong choice" She smirked. oh I love her..Just then my phone rang

"Hello?"

"Hey Belle" BEN!

"Hey Ben, I miss you!"

"I miss you too, listen how would you like it if me and the boys flew you and Jessica out to come see us for one month of the tour?" I was speechless, as this point he was on loud speaker and Jessica heard the whole thing.

"WE WOULD LOVE IT!" she screamed.

"Well pack your bags, you leave in two days! the plane tickets should be here by tomorrow. I love you!" He said and hung up before I even got a chance to speak. 

Me and Jessica both screamed and jumped up and down in excitement, I was so happy I didn't have to wait three months to see Ben

Hey guys i am so so so so so sorry I havent updated in ages, I havent been well at all and I am still sick, but im well enough to post, I really hope you enjoy this chapter :)<3