His Obsession

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  "Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain.

                       It's not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything."

                                                                                        ❃❃❃❃

A part of me knew that he shouldn't be pardoned so easily.

I shouldn't Just let him get away with what he did to me back in his office, even if he was angry and frustrated he did put his hands on me. Even though, I did see sincere regret in his eyes for his actions it still wouldn't be right of me to just forget about his mistreatment.

You're saying that now, while you're all snuggled up in his arms. My subconscious scoffs. 

As soon as I register the words of my subconscious, I immediately regret sitting on his lap in the first place but In my defense, I really was exhausted from all the shit that took place today. Hell, I was so exhausted I even let him carry me in his arms to the car. Even Glenda saw how I was all wrapped up in his arms A woman who's like a mother to me, saw me In a man's arms, My arms wound tightly around his neck, my head resting comfortably in the crook of his neck.

Imagining the look adorning Glenda's face brings an involuntary blush of embarrassment, I feel it spreading from the tips of my toes to the top of my ears, warming them up.

How can I possibly still be sitting in his lap after what happened back there?

 It takes a lot of effort to get off of his lap as he had wound his arms around me like a vice. He looks at me in utter confusion when he sees me getting settled in the seat beside me. I give him a pointed look and recognition washes for his face when he realizes why I moved away from him.

He releases a sorrowful sigh that has my heart softening, ''I'll do whatever it takes to earn your forgiveness, Ava. But please, just, don't push me away.''

''I'm sorry, Evan but it isn't right of me to settle in your lap like your mistress,'' He winces at that, ''and forget you tried to hurt me and forgive you.'' Cue the flinch.

I know it was harsh of me to treat him like that even after he'd apologized for it quite a few times but it also wouldn't be right of me to just forget about it and forgive right away.

He hangs his head in shame and looks at me through his thick lashes, his green eyes shining with regret, ''I'm sorry.'' And the way he mumbles it makes me want to jump back into his arms and forgive and forget what he did. 

I do neither as I clench my jaw and give him a short curt nod.

''Why is taking so long to reach my home?'' I ask annoyed because I could see my resolve cracking.

The driver hears and replies in a professional tone while keeping his eyes on the road, ''The usual way to your house is jam-packed with traffic so I took a different route. I hope it's okay with you ma'am.''

'' It's completely fine. I understand.'' I reply, giving him a small smile.

''Are you that afraid of me?''

I frown at his words, ''Evan, I'm not afraid of you. I'm exhausted okay? I'm truly exhausted from everything that's happened today.''

''So you're not afraid of me?'' He asks with hope.

I think his words through as I think to myself; Am I afraid of Evan? Did he manage to scare me? Break my resolve? Could I trust him so easily after what he did to me?