Jay is sitting beside you, occasionaly throwing popcorn into his mouth. You both were watching a mid-night movie at the cinema. He just landed in Korea and been taking you to see the movie that he likes. There wasn't much of people because it's already passed midnight and the movie is nearly being pulled off by the cinema.
It was quiet an unplanned decission, moreover it was rushed. But you agreed with him, however, you haven't seen Jay for almost 2 months now.
Bending inside the seat, you closed you ears, ready to be startled. Jay making fun of you, pulling your hand down.
"Stopp, I'm scared"You push his hand away. He chuckled softly.
It was quiet a thriller movie. But at middle of the movie you were shedding tears. Well the movie is quiet sad, but it's not that sad. You were just swept away by your own emotion.
After the movie Jay drove you home. Along the way you both didn't talk much. Jay was awkwardly driving.
"Babe.. you don't mind if I stay at my place tonight right? I am so tired"He switched lane.
"Yeah"You replied.
Then it went silent again. There was an uncomfortable but also comfortable mood between you two. For the past 6 months Jay was in and out Korea since he was signed by the Rocnation.
The relationship between you two began gray at those times. Both of you were fighting several times, sometimes there were no communication for a week or two.
Once you both started to talk there was just an akward situation, like this.
"Jay.."You called his name softly.
"Yeah..."He replied gently.
"I love you"You nearly wept.
"I love you too"He replied, you know his tone is quiet surprised.
"Can we pull over to my parking lot for a minute?"
"Yeah"He replied.
"What's up?"He pulled over the car, rubbing his eyes.
"There's something I wanted to tell you"You sighed
Jay furrowing.
"I've been thinking. I should've told you this from a long time ago but I keep pulling it back. But now I know, I realized what was it. Let's break up. It's the best thing we can do. I feel like I can't do this any longer. I don't wanna get hurt. I think it's better for me to be on my own"
"What? Why? suddenly. Just what happened to you?"
"It wasn't suddenly. I've been feeling this for the whole time, eversince you started flying ou~"
"The fuck are you talking about? Tell me you are not that shallow for breaking up with me because of my job"
"Noooo.. I will always support you for your job"
"Just tell me the truth, what is it?"
His eyes bulging out.
"I feel disconnected from you. Tell me when was the last time we really were ourselves Jay? We changed. We were always argue. Everytime I tried to start this conversation you told me you were tired, out of nowhere. I feeo neglected, now I just feel disconnected from you. I don't know why I was still doing this with you"
"Okay... I'm sorry. But I really was tired at those times. I just didn't know how should I respond you. That was why I did it."
You feel even more dejected now, don't know what to say.
"I still think we should go our separate way Jay" You continued, don't wanna see his face.
"Look, I'm sorry, but breaking up is not a solution"
"Why?"
"I just can't, I don't wanna do it"
"Why Jay? Look, now I'm holding out the door for you to go out, to be free. You can do things that you love now. I don't wanna feel dejected now, I dont wanna feel left out. It was my fault to love you so much that it hurt now. I think it's better for me to go on my own"
"I don't wanna do it"
"Ughhh tell me why?"
"I don't know, and I'm sorry"
"You are so selfish, I just cant understand you. Pleaseeee, please let me go"
"I said no, end of the conversation. I'm tired"
"But why? Why you still wanna do this? If you have no reason for doing it then let me go"
"Stop! I don't wanna talk about this anymore"
"Okay.. It's over for me. I just don't care anymore, I'll have it my way"
"Why you're doing this? Please don't"
"Bye"
You got out from the car, weeping. It's over. He wasn't even chasing you out. It's over.
