*Author's note*
Hi guys, thank you for all the kind feedbacks and attention. By this I announce that I will stop writing scenarios. I hope all my scenarios bring good for all your life.
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You stared blankly across the sofa. Your throat is blocked from holding the emotions.
Jay is standing awkwardly, he sighed and rubbing his face when he's nervous.
"You know I dropped by thinking that I should say hi" He started.
"Yeah"You replied, don't know how to answer.
Since the last fight which was a week ago both of you hadn't seen each other or contacted one another.
"Do you want something to drink?"You offered, about to go to the kitchen.
"No.. I um... I wanna talk to you that's why I'm coming" He nervous.
You nodded, taking a seat across him.
"Umm I just got back from Chicago, had several meetings with artists. And I.. um I had to do radio appearances. That was why I didn't reach to you, I'm sorry" He said, checking your expression.
You feel hurt now but you try to keep your cool. After the last fight you wished that he would hold you, trying to prevent you to go but he didn't. Since that time you were crying all night everyday. Thinking that its over.
"Are we good?"He continued. You scoffed.
"What do you think?"You replied.
"I know you mad"
"Jay... I'm so tired, I don't know what to say, I just.. want all this to stop"
"Heyy"Then he kneeled beside you while grabbing your hand.
Your tears dropped.
"I don't wanna do this anymore, please, stop"You resisted, trying to pull your hand but he gripped it tight inside his hands.
"Why?"He asked.
"Can't you see? I am hurting"
"But why? If there's something we can do to make it right tell me"
"No.. there's nothing. It's me. And I wanna stop"
"Tell me why?"
"I .... I don't feel like I belong in your world Jay. I never was. I had good times these past 3 years, but I feel like we are a different person now. I feel disconnected to you. l can't keep up anymore, and none of that is your fault. I know you, you can't always be there for me. It's not you, it's me who stops trying"
"No, no, you love me, I know you do"
"Jayy.. I love you with all I am. But I can't. I can't keep up with your world, you are so good on it. And I don't think you should be here and help me figure out things. I should be doing my own things. I sho~~"
"What are you talking about? What is it that you wanna do? Wha~?
"Jay.. l can't just throw everything out. I have my own life. I am not like any other girls who would find a shelter and wanted to feel or be settled, I wanna do things on my own. And I~~"
"So you think you can't do things with me? Do you even hear yourself now?None of what you said right now make any sense"
"I know... but honestly, all this time all I know is to give love to you, and I left nothing for my ownself. Because I had been giving everything for you I am weak"
"So do you blame for that?"
"I know it's my own fault that was why I need my own time alone"
"Baby.. You make yourself sound stupid just now. Why can't you do it with me? Am I a disturbance 4 u?"
"You are not. You just don't get it, whenever you here I can never fulfill my own expectation. Whenever I need support you were never there, I had to give my own self the support that I need and I cant do that when you are around"
"I don't get the fuck of everything. I love you, I will do anything to give you the love you need. Just tell me, don't play me out with saying you have lost all your love because of me. I put up all 3 years because of what? I do FUCKING LOVE YOU!!! JUST FACE IT! PUTTING ALL THIS UP IN FRONT OF MY FACE IS NOT GOING TO CHANGE ANYTHING! DONT ACT LIKE YOU DID EVERYTHING ON YOUR OWN! I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. YOU JUST HAVE TO TELL IT! SAY IT!! NO BULLSHITTING ME AROUND SAYING THINGS YOU CAN'T DO BECAUSE I'M AROUND. I put up with you all this 3 years! With or without your support. At least I got my own back, I know who I am. Even when you can't give me the support I force you to give one, because that's A FUCKING LOVER DO! But you have never ask me for my support. You caged yourself in that little bubble of yours and when suddenly things got hard by your own shit you put the blame on me. LEARN!!!!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GETTING INSIDE YOUR HEAD. BUT I'LL ALWAYS STICK HERE WITH YOU. CAUSE I LOVE YOU!!! I love you, don't push me out because you don't know how to love" Jay continued.
You burst into tears, going inside his chest.
"It's love even when it hurts. You and I know we love each other. Let's do this?" Jay calmed you down.
You leaned in to kiss him.
