U roam the room in the middle of the night thinking about the disaster that just happened 3 days ago. Dispatch has released pictures of you and Jay on a date. It was when you went to the AOMG to see Jay, and he gave you a ride home.
The picture shows both of you riding his car, Jay's on the driver seat and you on the passenger seat. The paparazzi followed you two even when you grabbed coffees. They had your picture when you got out from the car and back with 2 cups of coffee. Then Jay sent you out at your apartment.
From the released of the news Jay hasn't come out from his apartment meanwhile Simon D and other AOMG going back and forth to discuss the way out. Jay told you to not coming out your apartment even dont go to work for couple of days. The picture of you somehow had been blurred since you're not some kind of celebrity but your surename and what your job is exposed. But you bet your clear exposed face has leaked somewhere, and that's what Jay concern the most.
Some sasaeng fans has been stalking you since you can hear so much noise outside your place, about 3 packages has been stacked by strangers and Jay has warned you to not open it. By far you and Jay had only communicate by telephone to keep things down. Sae Na visited you twice and brought food to you. She smiled like nothing happened and didnt talk about the news at all.
When you hear something outside your apartment you hold your breath. But then someone sneaked inside and Jay face popped out in the darkness. You run and hug him.
"Heyyy heyyy" He shushing you,
"5 minutes" You whispered, you smell his cologne inside his chest, everythings gonna be alright you know at that time. Jay wears his snapback and long sleeve shirt with ripped pants and his J's.
"Why you're shivering so much?" He carried you upfront. You hang to him like a kangaroo.
He throw himself on the sofa and you're still attached to him not saying anything. You stroke his new tattoo on his neck, Jay keeping his eyes on you.
"You're beautiful" He smiling, you smiled back.
"Everything's gonna be allright" He added.
"What are we going to do?" You bent inside his chest.
"Im gonna meet the press tomorrow" He circled your waist.
"What?" You startled, gazing directly to him.
"We cant avoid this thing longer, they're waiting and waiting means hesitating"
"What u gonna say?" You face him
"Ill tell the truth"
You eyeeing him
"I'll tell them ure my girlfriend" Jay continued
"Are you outta your mind? You cant do this" You jumped off his lap.
"Then what else should i tell em, Ive told you im gon take you to my world. I took you to AOMG and now this side demand you too"
He gazed through you.
"Its alright, everything's gonna be alright don"t worry babe" He held ur shoulder.
"What do you mean its gonna be alright? This all thing is catastrophe!" You walked away.
"Jay this is serious, a lot of things might change. First your career, what wud people say? Your fans?" You're shivering.
"And what about me? Suicide! What about my family? What about my job? What would people say about me? My friends?"
Jay approach you, he tries to comfort you but you avoid his hand.
"They will know me. What about my future Jay?"
"Honey its gonna be alright, calm down"
"No its not. We dont live in North Pole or something, its Korea Jay. And who doesn't know you? What will people say about us? You the celebrity while Im just an ordinary girl. I bet my face has already exposed somewhere, people will recognize me, what will they labeled me Jay?"
"Baby~~"
"And how about our future? What if something goes wrong about our relationship and~"
"What are you talking ab~"
"Listen Jay, we cant predict future but i know this relationship wont last forever, what about me then? Im exposed" Your tears falling down.
"So what do you want me to do?" Jay nearly yell.
"I want you to think it over. Avoid it, dont say anything to the press, deny it or whatever Jay."
"I dont do things like that, u know me"
"Why??"
"DONT ACT LIKE YOU DONT KNOW ME!!" Jay yelled. You startled by his words. You cracked in tears, shivering head to toe.
Jay walk back and forth doesn't know what to do.
"For once *ur name* trust me. I know what i threw myself into. From the very start when i dated you i knew things will change. We're not safe from the very beginning. I know u have this logics, you're realistic and that's what i like about you. U never been a waste to me, and its serious"
"Come here" He walked to you.
"Look into my eyes baby" Jay pulled your head softly.
You see determination in his eyes.
"Do you love me?" he asked
"Of course, bu~"
"Do you love me ?" Jay replied
"Yes" You whined
"I know it aint be easy for both of us, but i cant stand you even myself be defined by people. Im a man too, i fall in love, and this time i fall hard"
"Jay but think abou~"
"I've done thinking, Are being quiet or denying things better than this? I dont wanna lie. Being in love aint bad, why cant i tell em that?"
"I love you, and you love me. We'll never live a normal life, you knew that when you dated me. Now im taking this risk cause im in love with you, its not just because i wanna prove this love to anybody or you, but im doing this all for myself. I dont wanna be controlled by what people saying. It aint truth or dare, Im doing it both cause Im in love. Trust me, all that matter is us, and we're doing it together"
You pull Jay chest and cry.
"I'll stay here all day untill tomorrow if u dont want me to go meet the press. But if you want me to meet them I'll stay with you for an hour, Hep's at the parking lot"
"Why?" You pull your head out of his chest.
"Im kinda asked AOMG's permission to see you. And if you agree with the press AOMG and I probably gonna talk things out, what should i tell and not telling the press, kind of fortune teller stuff"
"Can i come with you?"
"So you agree?"
You kiss his lips in agreement.
" Is that a yes?"
"Yes cause I love you" You sneaked inside his chest again.
"Good, but we'll be crowded by AOMG for probably 2 days ahead, they're going back and forth at my apartment so we can't be alone. And i haven't see you for some time so more than a kiss is permitable right now before we go to Hep" Jay caress your hip.
You bite his chest make him grinned.
