We Don't Know Where We'll Go - Before My Chemical Romance

Ch. 17 - Blackout Once, Blackout Twice

•Still Elise's POV•

It was the best thing that had happen to me in my whole life. This was the first time I had ever been kissed in my entire life. A shiver was sent down my back as he pulled away. My eyes were still closed when I heard a slight whimper.

I opened my eyes to find a wide-eyed Gerard. He looked slightly scared. I gave him a questioning look.

"I'm sorry" he whispered. Then he got up and shot down the stairs.

"Gerard!" I screamed. I heard a click on the down-stairs bathroom.

What was with him? That was the most amazing thing ever for me, was it that awful for him?

I ran downstairs to find him.

•Gerard's POV•

I slammed the bathroom door and locked the door. I stood there for a second, staring at the mirror on the wall to the left of me. I'm so ugly. I wiped the makeup off of my face with a towel and stared at my face again. On top of my ghostly-white skin, there were many bruises and bumps from my last encounters with the jocks at Target a few weeks ago. They were pretty deep, so they were a shinny yellow color now. My greasy, shoulder-length, black hair hung flat at the sides of my face - actually, in my face. I pushed a bit of my hair behind my large ears to get a better look at my eyes.

My eyes. That was the only part of me that I liked. They were a cool hazel color that had evolved over time. Of course my eyes were red and swollen now since I had began to slightly cry.

I slid down the door and slumped onto the cold, tile floor. I flung my head backwards and studied the ceiling.

Why did I do that? I had just let Elise get hurt because of me, and then... I kissed her? Where did that come from? I mean I wanted to, but... it's me. She probably hates me for not being there for her today, and why would she like me anyway? I'm so weird looking. I'm such an awkward person. And I said it before and I'll say it again, but she could probably get any guy she wanted. So why would she go with me?

I'm such a dork.

Then I heard I slight knock on the door.

•Elise's POV•

I lightly knocked on my bathroom door with my knuckle. I heard some sniffling on the other side.

"Gerard?" I whispered with concern in my face. The sniffling stopped. "Gerard, I know your there" I whispered again, being let down that he wasn't answering me at first.

"Yeah...?" he said. He sounded like he had been crying. I had a feeling this might be a long talk, so I slumped against the door so I could be directly on the other side of Gerard.

"Gerard, what's wrong?" I sighed.

"I'm such an awful person..."

"Gerard, I would never hate you. I know you might have snapped under pressure with the hair thing this morning, but it happens to everyone. Everyone has the things they're afraid of, and I don't blame you for not liking the jocks. I think everyone is afraid of them," I chuckled. "And by the way, what you did back there, I think that was pretty brave".

"I'm sorry", he apologized again.

"Hey, hey, hey... I never said... I didn't enjoy it" I smiled.

There was silence on his part for a little while. Then he spoke up again.

"Elise... don't waste your time on me. There are way too many better guys out there for you. I'm just a waste of space..." he trailed off.

"Gerard. I want to be with you" I said sort of stubbornly, but with all my heart.