Life sucks

The Beginning

It hurts to remember the first months of my relationship with Jonathan. From me blushing at his cheesy good night messages, which by the way is getting fucking annoying, to me now cringing at his every message. For example, we texted today and let's say I was a being a total ass. A complete sociopath, I didn't give a shit about how he was feeling and I don't regret a thing.

Jonathan ( after I stated we should break up): I love you Naomi and I always will.

Jonathan: How was your day

Me: I don't want to talk

Jonathan: ok, honey, bye I love you with all my heart.

ONE DAY LATER

Jonathan: Our relationship is a real one just not a normal relationship. We are long distance a form of relationship. We love each other even before you moved, which means that this is something, it is a real thing and before we were dating we knew each other for a year and we were friends for a year. So we have a foundation for our relationship. You said, "I don't want to be considering us an "us" because I don't want our relationship on whatever this is" what this is to me at least is a loving relationship between two people (me and you). Nailea this is a very hard part of our relationship but with our love, we can get through this as a couple. This is what I believe. I love you, Naomi, I'll never stop. I will wait if needed but I don't think I need to wait we can still date but in an odd way. Love you with all my heart.

                  Bitch this ain't some cheesy romantic life lesson, I'm telling you in a nice way that I can't stand you anymore, I'm done with this mediocre relationship where we can't talk face to face. Where we are in two separate cities, and can't be together and the only thing that can keep us together is your cheesy, useless messages that in the end aren't really helping anyone. I hate this, even with you more than 3,000 miles away from you the most clingy person I've ever dated. I don't hate you, but I hate what you are acting weak, like a crybaby, like you can't handle what is going on. I hate that I'm stronger than you and yet you want to "protect" me, bitch, from what I see and have witnessed, I'm on my own. Jonathan, you are a great guy, but I just can't anymore...

Me: OKay... Bye