Life sucks

Homophobic and yet... not really

  Well, to start off boys are so overrated and I have come to the conclusion that I will become a lesbian and instead of giving blowjobs I'm going to scissor my same sex. I mean it. Boys are confusing and don't always know what they want and what they do want we can't give or shouldn't give. Aka sex. Girls are easy to figure out and since I am one, finding a girl that looks for the characteristics will be easy. I hereby declare myself a lesbian and want no furthermore business with the opposite sex.

There now it's a done deal.

Nyet (no in Russian)

I'm pretty much a homophobic or at least when it comes to females cause that's pretty gross. BUT I am still young and possibly should explore my options.

Maybe. Not really. Depends on the situation.

But, I am putting effort to become less homophobic. To be 100% honest, I was once pansexual. There was this out-going girl I was crushing on really bad and she liked me too, so we hit it off pretty well. That was until I got myself a boyfriend. Now read this part carefully... I didn't cheat on him, mostly for the fact that what I and Girl had was just a fling. She even had the guts to ask him if she could still mess with me, you know like, lend me when she could. Poor guy didn't even respond. Whenever we would remember each other and wanted each others company we would sneak off to the restroom and...

OK, THIS GOT TOO DEEP!!!

So where was I...

No, before all the lesbian stuff went down

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Oh right! So basically I don't want to be a homophobic anymore. I mean when I was with Girly, we always had to hide away and I know what it's like so I should be more reasonable, right? Well, that's what my issue is, I want to be reasonable, and possibly go back to my pansexual ways. But there isn't my type here. To be completely honest I'm especially picky about my girls. My past is what most likely brought my no-homo-self today. Boys are my preferred gender and in order for me to like a girl, they have to be real attractive both personally and physically.

Guys, on the other hand, I like to manipulate them. Make them want what they can't have, play with their emotions and make them dependent. But I don't do this to guys I take seriously, like Jonathan. I'm a female alpha.