Life sucks

What if we?

Ok so back to my life story for now.

I've been thinking about getting back with Jonathan but on top of that, I wanted to get back with Atreiu (another guy that I dated but I left him because of me moving away to Houston but then I ended up with Jonathan since I could technically still date and contact him, unlike Atrieu... TBH I feel so guilty for doing that, it's so not like me to do that). 

Justin, my best friend, was the first to know about this besides Nelson, also my best friend. We talked with Jonathan but we didn't say anything about my feelings. BUT what did happen was me and Jonathan flirting (ish). Here is a LONG paragraph peek of what we were talking about to show how things led to another.

N: Hi

J: Hi

N: Wyd?

J: Music

N:  My typing stinks since my brother is trying to steal/break my computer***

he is now on my shoulders***

hELpMEhh

J: That's cute

N: CANTBREATHE

J: Haha Omegalul

N: HE IS PUTTING HIS FINGERS IN MY MOUTH

J: Wtf

N: Sorry

J: You good

That's funny

N:**he is eating my hair **

J: I think you should you know stop him

N: Can't

J: Haha😂😂

N: he is unstoppable

he left

J: You're not that weak

N: HE WAS EATING MY H A I R 

J: 😂😂Y

N: cause he be like that

N: OMG My favorite song from xxxTentacion is changes

J: Like that one but it makes me cry most of the time

N: Right????

J: Deadass. Yeah, that song fucks me up. Have you heard happier by marshmallow

N: OMG YASSSSS ITS ALSO MY FAVORITE

J: Shit gets me in my feels

N: Hardcore

J: Sad songs are like the best and the worst

N: Exactly

J: Dead fucking ass dude

N: Straight up like Falling Down by Lil Peep and xxxT

J: Bro I was about to put that. I shit you not

N: Ha we still got something huh?

J: Yeah Lucid dreams

That song fucks me up so hard

N: That's concerning 😅

J:🤣😂Hahaha. That song fucked me upThat was the one song I couldn't not cry to

N: Oof same

J: It's the lyrics tho they hit me deeeep

N: Again concerning

***I missed a video call due to me being in the same room as my parents and grounded still plus I was on the computer***

THIS MOVED TO A GROUP CHAT WITH JUSTINE 

Justin: Y'all can continue

N: Ok?? I got to go before my mom kicks my booty

Justin: Jonathan said he was talking to you

N: Ik we were

Justin:  Then go

Nigg

N: er

Justin: Aight

Jonathan: Bruh just let her

Justin: Wot

N: Bye guys good night 😘

Jonathan: Bye

Justin: Good night m8

N: I'll text you tomorrow Jonathan

Jonathan: Bye 👋

Justin:  Wow fake didn't even say night

Jonathan: Omegalul

Justin: He never said night

Jonathan: What

N: Lul

Jonathan: Fine good night

Justin: Like what a fake right

There

Good boy

Jonathan: Fuck off

N: lul 

Nah

Jonathan: On?

Justin: W h a t

N: 50/50

Jonathan: Omegalul

N: Justine be like ????????

Justin: H u h

Jonathan: Deadass

Justin: Wot u naggers talkin bout

Jonathan: don't worry about it

N: OK bye good night luv ya guys  

Justin: Aight m8 love you too no homo