I wanna..

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I'm pansexual btw! 💖💛💙
And this is a poem I wrote combining all my feelings, fears, sadness, things that I never tell anyone and things that people just don't get.
I hope you enjoy reading this and maybe feel the emotions I put into writing this.
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I wanna be seen.
yet I hide in the dark.
I wanna show skin.
yet I'm afraid they'll see my scars.
I wanna be happy.
but for some reason it feels so hard.
I keep thinking that if I smile,
then someday I'll see the stars.

I wanna hide behind my hair.
yet I wanna cut it short.
I wanna be the person I am.
without being judged, of course.
I wanna hold hands with the girl I love
yet nobody would call 'girls liking girls' love.

I wanna be brave and tell the world who I am.
but I know if I did, it's not like they'd understand.
I want this to be a world where it's not just 'women and men.'
I wanna be happy.
but I don't think I can.

Cause, I wanna live where I don't have to pick sides.
Just cause I'm a girl that doesn't wanna date all guys.
I don't wanna be labeled as a 'freak' or a 'fake.' Just cause I don't fit in with society, these days.

I wanna be loved.
And I wanna be free.
I also wanna be accepted, for being me.
I don't wanna have to keep up a facade and pretend to people that I'm okay. When I'm clearly not and I just lie to their face.

I wanna be truthful.
But of course, I'm afraid.
Cause what if I tell the world and they don't treat me the same?
I'm still the same person I was before, but everything that was once hidden, is now open like a door.

and I know there's nothing to be ashamed of.
But how come in order to be happy, you have to lose everything you love?

~k.w.a.v

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