I want you, only you | g.d

Chapter 4

I lost him.

He's the first person I actually ever cared for. He actually gave me a reason to live. before I met him I wanted to die I didn't want to live at all.

He gave me hope, he made me believe that I was worthy. Now I'm just nothing, without him I'm worthless. ( lol is that to dramatic)

The school day was over and all day long Asher was ignoring me, just because he wanted to fit in I guess.

I got home and just went to bed. I couldn't get the thought of him humiliating me in front of his "friends".

Every time I think about it, it just makes me want to cry more. I go in to my bathroom and look in my drawers until I find exactly what I needed.

I took the sharp blade and put it against my skin. I never thought I would do this again. I close my eyes and I start to cut until I stopped thinking about what happened. A few minutes later my arm was filled with cuts. I head over to my closet and put on a long sleeve shirt. I go lay back down on my bed.

I began to cry, why would
He do that, he knows about my depression, he knows how I feel about rejection cause I've been rejected since I was a little girl by my own family, he knows that I used to cut my self before I knew him, he helped me get through the tough times and he just throws me back in the dark, just as I was about to get out of the darkness he puts me right where I was in the beginning. Back to crying in the dark.

I feel my phone vibrate, I look at my phone, and I got a new snapchat notification.

From Grayson.