I want you, only you | g.d

Chapter 19

*dont play yet*

Grayson and I decided to get married when we turn 21. We are 19 right now so just 2 more years and ima be a married women.

"Why are you screaming" I hear Grayson say as he walks in the room.

"I'm just so excited" I say as I cry a little bit.

"Aww don't cry baby, I'm excited to" Grayson said with tears in his eyes.

"I can't wait to be Mrs.Dolan" I say as I try to hold back the tears but fail.

"I can't wait to call you Mrs.Dolan" Grayson says as he lets the tears roll down his cheeks.

"Rae" I hear Lisa yell from down stairs.

"I'll be back baby your mom is calling me" I say as I peck his lips. "Ok baby" Grayson says as he slaps my ass once I got up.

I rush downstairs to see what Lisa wanted only to see her smiling. "Yes Lisa" I asked politely.

"The wedding planner is here in the kitchen let's go plan your wedding, I know it's to early but I want to be prepared you know" Lisa said smiling, I could tell she was really excited.

"Yea sure let's go I want you to plan it with me" I say as I head to the kitchen.

As we planned the wedding I began to cry. I was really happy I was getting married to the love of my life.

"Hey don't cry sweetie, save it for the wedding" Lisa said as chuckled trying to lighten up the mood, she cried a bit. "I'm sorry I'm just excited to marry your son, I really love him" I say as I choked on my tears. Lisa hugged me and rocked me cheering me up, "I can't wait till your married to my son, you make him very happy" Lisa said as she continued to rock me.

I suddenly got a feeling that I've never felt in a long time. I felt a mothers love. I cried even more knowing that my mom won't be here to see me get married. "It's okay sweetie, it's okay to cry" Lisa said as she planted a kiss on my head.  God I miss her.

~later that day~

"Um Grayson is it okay if we can go visit my mother's grave" I said as I hold back my tears.

"Yea sure baby come on" he said as he put in his shoes and we headed out.
The entire car ride was quiet but peaceful. The whole time Grayson had his hand on my thigh and I held his hand. We stopped to get some flowers and got back in the car.

*play song*

Once we arrived at the cemetery I began to tear up. We head to my mother's grave. Once we got there I let out the tears I've been holding in.

"I miss you mom" I choked on my tears. Grayson was rubbing my back the entire time. "I hate Adam for taking you away from me" I sobbed as I crawl up into a ball. I wipe my tears, "I'm getting married mom, I wish you can be here to see me get married to the love of my life"  I said wanting to cry more. I let more tears out, "Grayson is here and you were right, I never felt alone when I was with him. He makes me feel safe" I cried even more, remembering the night she passed away.

*flashback*

"You won't be alone, you have him" my mom said pointing at Grayson.

"I love you Rae, be good" she said And kissed me on my cheek one last time, her hand lightly released mines.

"Mom no" I sobbed as I held her closer to me, "please don't leave me, I still need you" I cried out.

*end of flashback*

"Your daughter is safe with me Mrs.Diaz" Grayson said out of nowhere and that made me cry even more. "I love your daughter so much, when I ever look into her eyes I fall in love even more" Grayson says as he cries with me. He's hugging me from behind as we were sitting.

I felt a breeze and it calmed me down a bit. I felt like my mother was here. "I love you mom" I sobbed into Grayson's chest. Once I was done grieving. I stood up and laid the flower down on her grave. "Rest I peace mom, I miss you so much" I say as I wipe my tears away.

We walked out of the cemetery and got in the car as we were passing by the cemetery I see my mothers grave with fresh flowers that we left her.

"I love you mommy"
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I cried while I was writing this I'm not okay right now.