I want you, only you | g.d

Chapter 12

Since my mom death, I've never been the same. I lost my world.

I continued to cut my self, my thighs, arms, stomach, and hands. My body is filled with cuts. I can't wear short sleeve shirts no more, I can't wear shorts either. I stopped eating. I eat here and there but thats cause Grayson makes me eat. He says he doesn't want me to starve. He stays in the room with me until I finish my meals.

I also live with Grayson now. Since that night, I had nowhere to go, so Grayson decided to let me stay with him. He talked to his parents about it and they allowed me to. My room is Cameron's old room. Cameron is in college so she's barely home.

I stay in my room, I don't even think about leaving. The only time I leave is when I have to go to school.

This morning I had to force myself to get up so I wouldn't miss school. I heard a knock on the door so I turned and walked towards the door to open it. I opened the door only to see Grayson. "Are you ready for school Rae" He asked nicely. "Almost, um you want to come in" I asked. "Sure" he said smiling. He came in and sat on my bed.

"Do I have to go to school?" I asked not wanting to go to school. "If you want, I can give Ethan the keys so he can head to school, and we can have a day off" he said.

"I would love that" I said happily. Grayson got up and left the room, "ETHANN" I heard Grayson yell from the hallway.

After a few minutes Grayson walked in and said, "alright so it's just you and me, Ethan is on his way to school and my mom and dad are at work".

I smiled at him and went to my bed and laid down. "Come lay down with me" I said.

He walked towards me and laid down next to me, he wrap his arm around me, making me feel safe.

We stayed quiet for a few minutes. I turned and faced him and I put my hand next to his face and caressed his face with my thumb. "I love you Grayson" i whispered.

"I love you too Rae" he then leaned in for a kiss, I then lean in and kissed him. He got on top of me kissing me gently in my neck. I open my legs letting him in between my legs. He put his hand on my waist, gently sliding his hand down to my thigh. He picked up my thigh and caressed my thigh with his thumb. He started to slowly grind on me, I let out a moan, I was craving him more by the second.

"I need you Grayson" i whispered seductively.  He groaned and he continued to slowly grind on me. He stopped and stood up to take off his shirt, revealing his toned abs. He took off his pant leaving him in his underwear. I began to take off my sweatshirt revealing my scars. Graysons eyes widened. I gasp remembering that my body was filled with scars. I began to cover my body up feeling insecure. "Hey it's okay" Grayson whispered. He grabbed my hand and caressed my hand with his thumb.

"You carry those scars inside too" he said gently rubbing my hand. "Let me help you" he added. I nodded.

I took off my pants revealing more scars, I was worried of what he would think. He just looked at my body. He began to kiss my scars from my thighs all the way up to my arms. It sent chills down my spine.

"You don't have to fight these battles alone" he whispered into my ears sending more chills down my spine. I began to tear up a bit. I no longer feel alone. "I love you Grayson" I said. "I love you too Rae"

He smashed his lips onto mines, I didn't hesitate to kiss back. He continued to kiss me as he gripped my thigh.He took off his underwear revealing his member. I took off my panties and my matching bra. He leaned in, I could feel a cold breeze over my naked body.

"Are you sure you want to do this" he asked knowing it's my first time. "Yes" I said. I was ready to make love to him.

He slowly entered me and he let out a moan. I instantly felt pain. I moaned as his began to thrust faster. "I love you Grayson" I whimpered. He kissed my neck making me shiver. He gripped on to my thigh and began grinding faster.The pain slowly went away and I began to feel pleasure. "I love you Rae" he moaned as he thrusts faster and harder.

I moaned louder,I couldn't take anymore. His thrust were getting sloppy. He pulled out and released on my stomach. He laid down next to me, and he was out of breathe. I got up to go clean myself. As I stood up I felt sore. I could barely walk.

I waddled to the bathroom and got in the shower. As I was showering I felt a cold breeze against my back. I turned around to see Grayson. I wrapped my arms around him and put my head against his smooth chest. After a few seconds I look up at him and he was already looking down at me. "I love you Grayson"I said as I pecked his lips. He hugged me and started rubbing my back with soap.

"I love you more"

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Omfg I was cringing the entire time I was writing this. My virgin ass didn't fucking know what to write. Like I don't fucking know what it feels like but here I am, my virgin self writing smut. Anyway, hope you enjoyed.