South Park in Hamilton because I have no life.

It's quiet uptown and the election of 1800. (chapter 26.)

I have nothing to say, 'it's quiet uptown' even brings me to tears and I cry.......... rarely. Also, I'm sorry for using the POV of 'Angelica Hamilton' for this..... that's the only grief I'm familiar with, someone older. Fact: Philip died in 1801 and Burr and Jefferson campaigned with each other for a while.
~Eko.
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There are moments that the words don't reach, there is suffering too terrible to name... You hold your child as tight as you can and push away the unimaginable. The moments when you're in so deep
It feels easier to just swim down.... so we move uptown and learn to live with the unimaginable.

"I spend hours in the garden, I walk alone to the store and it's quiet uptown... I never liked the quiet before," mum says.

She's praying.

"I take the children to church on Sunday, a sign of the cross at the door—," mum says.

"And I pray," she says.

Her speaking pattern changes.

"That never used to happen before," she says.

"If you see her on the street, walking by herself, taking to herself, have pity."

It's all Kyle told them... but yeah, mum does talking to herself.

"Ike you would like it uptown, it's quiet uptown."

She's working through the unimaginable. Her hair has gone grey, she passes every day... they say she walks the length of the city.

"You knock me out, I fall apart," she says, looking up at the ceiling.

"Can you imagine?"

Yes I can, it was my brother. Sure, they lost a child but I lost him when he said he'd teach me so many things.

"Look at where we are! Look at where we started.... I know I don't deserve you, Stan... but hear me out. That would be enough."

I walked in on them talking ones, they don't even give a second thought to us now.... now that my brother is dead.

"If I could spare his life.... If I could trade his life for mine, he'd be standing here right now and you would smile, and that would be enough."

I sigh on my mind, watching her cry there, on the ground. It's pathetic that we kids want attention but.... we do exist! People outside of Ike did exist.

"I don't pretend to know the challenges we're facing... I know there's no replacing what we've lost.... and you need time! But I'm not afraid, I know who I married! Just let me stay here by your side, that would be enough."

"If you see her in the street, walking by his side, talking by his side, have pity...."

Kyle has more understanding of what to do than I do, I guess.

"Stan do you like it uptown? It's quiet uptown."

All the while I was next to them. Do I like it uptown? Doesn't seem to matter....

"She is trying to do the unimaginable," I say in my mind, quoting Kyle.

"See them walking in the park, long after dark, taking in the sights of the city."