Falling - NOAH CENTINEO

ch. 13 | Fuck-Up

After a long day at the zoo, I was still shaken by Noah's moms comment. I found it alarming that I had never even known about what they had been secrelty hoping for all these years.

I looked at Noah next to me. We were laying in my bed, watching a scary movie that he insisted upon seeing.

I still couldn't wrap my head around the fact that my mother at one point, actually cared about me and wanted to be involved in my life. Pre divorce, she was an amazing mom. But the past few years have been hell. I barley remember the woman she used to be.

I felt tears jerk through my eyes, unwillingly. I sniffled, wiping my nose.

"Its not that scary, is it?" Noah joked.

"No, sorry, I'm...fine." I said, trying to stop the tears from flowing.

He paused the movie and looked over at me, seeing that I was actually crying.

"Woah, B, what's wrong?" He said, putting his hand on my knee.

I cried harder, not even meaning to. I was going down a black hole of self pity.

"I'm just thinking... about my parents." I cried harder, leaning my head into his shoulder.

"It's okay, Blake, its all okay now." He said, caressing my hair.

I couldn't speak through the tears. I just kept feeling bad for myself. I kept thinking of my dads new family, my half sibling somewhere in the world.

"Blake, please, its all okay." He pleaded, trying to help me calm down.

He grabbed my chin and lifted my head. Within a millisecond, he kissed me.

He kissed me and I saw fireworks. Suddenly, all my problems were so small and I didn't care because Noah was kissing me.

It felt like it lasted longer than it did, but I relished in every second of it.

I knew right then, that I wanted to kiss him for the rest of my life.

He pulled back, his eyes still closed, like he didn't want it to end either.

He opened his eyes and they were wide. He had realized what he had done and he regretted it. He got off of the bed and rubbed his eyes.

"I-" He started, trying to figure out what to say.

"Noah-" I started.

"I'm sorry, uh, I'm gonna go. Goodnight, Blake." He stammered and exited my room quickly.

I didn't have time to say anything else because he had shut the door. I was left touching my lips, wanting the moment back. But after that reaction, I doubt I'll ever kiss him again.

Noah's POV

I kissed her. I fucking kissed her like an idiot.

I paced my room. Who can I talk to? Taylor? no, she'll tell my mother.

I pulled my phone out and dialed Mark's number.

He answered almost immediately.

"Hey, man. Whats up?" He asked.

"Okay, dude. I kinda just fucked up." I said, continuing to pace my room.

"What'd you do?" He asked, his voice becoming more serious.

"I kissed Blake." I said, rubbing my eyes.

"Props bro, thats not a fuck-up, thats a victory."

"No, you don't get it. You know I like her, but she was crying and I didn't even think about it, I just kissed her so she'd feel better."

"Well, did it work?" He asked.

"Yeah, I guess. She stopped crying."

"Did she kiss you back?" He asked.

"Yeah, I think so. It all happened so fast I-"

"Dude, she wanted to kiss you. Stop stressing. Just go talk to her tomorrow and see what happens. But I guarantee, she liked that kiss."

"How can you know, dude?" I asked, finally sitting on my bed.

"If she didn't want to kiss you, she wouldn't of. Blake looks at you the same way you look at her too." He sighed.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yes, now go kiss her again or something."

"Well, I don't know about that. I kinda stormed out of her room."

"Bro." He said, annoyed. "Why the hell?"

"I was nervous, I didn't know what to do." I sighed.

"Alright, just talk to her tomorrow. I mean you guys are on vacation together, you're gonna have to talk at some point."

"Yeah, you're right." I sighed.

"Okay, night. Lemme know how it goes."

"Will do." I said, ending the call.

I was still shocked. What in the hell possessed me to kiss her?

I took off my shirt and climbed under the covers, trying to just go to sleep and forget about the whole thing.

I wonder what Blake's thinking right now.