Poetry

Would I Tell You

You’ve been on my mind lately.

What would happen if I saw,

Out on the streets,

Or if for some odd reason I went to the store

That you work at,

And you saw me.

What would I say?

What would I feel?

I’ve thought about it,

A lot.

Probably more than I should.

What would I say?

Would I tell you that I still love you?

I do.

But I hate you.

Would I tell you everything you did wrong?

Would you already know?

It’s been long enough.

Would you tell me what an idiot you were,

For hurting me,

Cheating on me,

Lying to me,

Constantly.

Would I tell you that I had waited three years

Just to hear those words?

But tell you it’s too late.

I’ve moved on.

That I was happy?

Would I tell you I wished you the best?

Would I tell you I hope you were happy?

Would I tell you how bad you really hurt me?

The pain you caused.

Not the physical,

No, it’s the emotional,

The mental pain.

That’s what hurts the most.

But, Would I even tell you that,

Or would I turn and run,

Tail tucked.

Would cry?

I don’t know.

I would love to believe I’m over you,

But until I see you
I’ll never know.

For now I’ll tell you this,

I’m happy,

As happy as I can be when

All I can think about is,

Is if he is like you.

I’m happy,

As happy as I can be when.

I cry because I still believe you,

No one will love me.

Would I tell you how you destroyed me,

When all I did wrong was love you.

All I did was think you hung the moon and stars.

I apologize for that,

I worshiped you, and I was wrong.

Would I tell you that I hate you?

Would I tell you that you are a waste of space and air?

What would I tell,

The first guy I ever loved,

The first guy to not just break my heart,

But shatter it,

The first guy who was everything to me?
I would tell you, that

While I still love you,

I can’t stand you.

You are no longer in my life,

And I want it to stay that way.

I’m sorry if this hurts you, but

I was hurt first.

But this won’t hurt you like you did me.

No, this is soft and kind.

I would tell you, may everything go how it should.