Poetry

I Was Taught

I was taught

That everything was my fault.

That’s why I apologize,

For everything,

Constantly.

I was taught

That no one would want me,

That’s why I hold on so tightly,

And get destroyed so easily.

I was taught

I couldn’t be loved,

That’s why it hurts,

Because I love

With everything I have.

I was taught

This and that,

And it seems like

You are trying to unteach me

These things,

That I’ve held onto for years now.

And it makes me happy,

But then,

I hear those words.

And my shoulders slump,

The tears gather in my eyes,

And the cold blade calls for me.

I was taught,

No one would care about me.

No one would want me.

No one could love me.

And I’ve sorta

Believe that.

I was taught

This way.

I was taught the only way to get attention

Was to

Drink,

Be dramatic,

Or hurt myself.

But you seem different.

You seem like you don't want me

to hurt myself.

Maybe,

Maybe you can

Teach me a new way.