I luv u ; joeybirlem

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i woke up and joey wasnt there . i was yelling and yelling and yelling but nothing . nobody answered , its like the whole hospital was empty . After the 5th try i gave up and about 10 minutes later a nurse walked in .

" im so sorry to inform you but , your boyfriend , has sadly passed away . he was losing too much blood and we only had enough of the antibiotics to help one of you and he passed them down to you . "

" no tell me youre lying to me ! please tell me youre lying ! i need him and saying something like that is just rude ! please ! please say this is all just a joke ! please say that he really didnt leave me without even saying goodbye ! ple-e-e-ase "

i was choking for air . i couldnt breathe nor could i say another word after that , i was wheezing trying to take any breaths that i could before i surely stopped breathing compleatly . Hoping I would just stop breathing , i woke up harshly gasping for air with so many tears running down my face . I was so mad , I was so angry and aggravated .
I wanted to leave .

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there were nurses all around me and bright lights all up in my face . i squinted my eyes tryuing to make sense of what is happening . they all backed away and the lights turned off , all i could see were about 10 nurses all around me in the room . it got quiet and i heard sniffling coming from joeys side of the room . i looked over and sw him crying , i saw him crying like ive never seen him before , it really does to take a lot to break joey just like it does for me .

" shes okay ! "

one of the nurses yelled to everybody in the room . joey then quickly stood up and the nurses had to force him back down , if he would have stood up he would have hurt himself . all the nurses left the room and it was just me , joey , and the head doctor .

" what the hell happpen and why were there so many people surrounding me with really bright lights , also why did that lady just yell out that im okay ? "

" your blood pressure was high and your heart beat was just racing , then after 10 minutes of that you flat lined which then 5 minutes later you came back but you started crying "

" my dream , it was awful and i was crying in it , a lot actually , but i didnt know all of this was happening outside of my body . uhhh am i okay though ? "

" of course , it just scared us all including your boyfriend here . " My eyes widened and I looked at joey and he sheepishly smiled

" if we could have a minute alone doctor ? "

" yes ! i need to go get both of yours' antibiotics . ill explain what they are for once i get back . should take me about 20-30 minutes "

" thank you "

the doctor left and i looked over at joey who was just staring at me in releif , he didnt say a word , he just stared at me crying and twiddling with his fingers with a cheepish smile on his face .

" joey i - "

he just ran up to me and hugged me like if he hadnt seen me in years . the feeling felt nice and i loved being in his arms , especially when he held me oh so tight not letting me go . i felt safe and as if nothing in this world could ever hurt me as long as i was in his arms . i love this kid and its like nothing can get in the way of our connection . joey is who i was to be with for the rest of my life if thats what it ever comes to . if i had to chose one person out of this whole world to be with forver id chose Joseph Matthew Birlem because he my friends , is my everything .