I luv u ; joeybirlem

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I woke up in my bed and didn't even move , I just stared up at the celling thinking about how I even got here in the first place . thinking about how the next years of my life would be now that im here in this gang house with joey . thinking about how much I was hurt from yesterday and knowing I cant do anything about it because no matter what I do it'll just get so much worse than it already is . I got up and went to the living room throwing myself on the couch ,I didn't know what to do with my life anymore so I just turned on bubble guppies and waited for paw patrol to come on . Then the front door swang open and in walked 3 boys carrying bags from the grocery store , oh my and they were hot boys .

" hey are you another one of joeys girls ? " one of them asked whilst putting things in the fridge .

I grabbed and pillow and put it on my face and screamed , god I was so frustrated . 

" no , no I am not " I spat 

" cool cause youre hot " another one said 

" diego youre a fucking idiot " one laughed 

" well im mark , this is alex and that one is diego " he said pointing to all of them and smiling .

" oh im callie " I sighed , alex walked over to me . 

" are you okay " he asked 

" no but id rather not- " I was cut of by a hug . I didn't even move . 

" you don't have to tell me anything just accept my hugs " he laughed . 

I nodded and hugged him , just then joey came from downstairs and looked me dead in the eyes and shook his head walking back up , when he turned his back I noticed a flower and some chocolates , I felt bad but I didn't feel bad for beating him up . I didn't know what to do at this point , I just stood there speechless , I came to my senses and decided to go talk to him . 

I walked up stairs and stood in front  of his room door , my hand was in a fist and ready to knock but for some reason I just couldn't , I don't know why , was it because I don't want to ? or was it because I shouldn't and this the universe telling me he's fine , everything's fine , and if I even try to talk to him ill just make everything 100x worse than they already are ? I stopped myself and decided just to walk back to my room and cry , for an hour or two . 

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I woke up and checked the time , it was 6pm . I took a 5 hour nap and surprisingly actually stayed asleep through the whole thing . I got up and got some pajamas ready for a shower , I went in and turned the water on making sure it was warm , once I'm already in I make it progressively hot . shower thoughts are gonna be fun right ? ill probably start crying but it wont even be noticeable because well , I'm in the shower .

I finished and got out already dressed and hair dried , I was pretty hungry so I went downstairs to get something from the fridge , probably just make cereal . I made my way down the long hallway and to the spiral staircase that lead to the living room and walked into the kitchen only to see joey and his new girl , yea it hurt but its whatever honestly . yes , I freaking loved the kid but , if that's what makes him happy , I'm not gonna stand in the way . 

I sighed and opened the fridge grabbing a coke and sat on the couch and started playing fortnite cause I have nothing better to do considering I cant leave . Diego came and sat down next to me laughing at how I kept falling off of my builds but I still ended up murking that hoe cause gang gang . Diego took the controller away from me and started playing , I just sat there looking at how fast he was building and his editing was godly . 

he passed it back to me and I , obviously , took the dub cause I'm a god . I turned around and noticed joey staring at me intensely , ugh my god pls leave me alone I'm trying to get over you dayum . I rolled my eyes and looked back at the tv , Diego put his hand around my and I was still kicking ass so I didnt bother to notice . all of a sudden the front door opened and we all looked over , walked in was a tall man with a nice clean shave , he was kinda hot no cap but much older than me . 

" guys this is our newest member " he said walking in 

" meet Carter ! " my eyes widened 

" Carter ? " joey gritted his teeth and looked at me 

" hi " he walked in with a smile on his face until he saw me 

" Callie ? "

" Carter " I said shakily 

I was scared , he tried to kill me not once but twice and almost did . I dont want him near me , I dont want him around me , I dont wanna see him period . 

I'm scared . 

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this book aint done yet I just got some hekka ideas bye -