I luv u ; joeybirlem

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I woke up the next morning , ahhh Friday . I only love Fridays so much because on Fridays I take an online school and I don't have to leave the house . The best part is that I only have to complete 1 small lesson in each core subject and I'm done for the day , but today was different , I actually wanted to go to school . I got dressed and did my hair and make up .

I remembered what happen yesterday and I didn't feel bad , at all . I meant everything I said , He made me feel like shit when I just started to believe I could ever trust him again .

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I pulled up to the parking lot and parked in my usual spot . I got off and walked to the courtyard , everyone was staring at me . Sarah came up to me and asked the worst question ever .

" what the hell is going on Callie "

" why do you mean ? "

" I mean that everyone is saying you hit joey and raged off on him ! "

" what the - "

I saw joey and anger took over my body . I had no control whatsoever over my emotions nor what I was doing . I walked over to him furious and he just looked at me , I didn't mean to do it , I would never hit joey but I slapped in across the face . I look at him with fear in my eyes , I looked at my hand then back at him . He was angry and upset . I ran , I ran all the way to the only empty bathroom . What did I just do and why did I do it . I felt so bad , I've never laid a hand on him like that and I never wanted to , I never wanted it to come to the point where my emotions took over my body and controlled every step I took .

***

It's lunch and I'm sitting at my spot with Emily .

" so "

I looked up at her .

" what ? "

" are you okay ? "

" yes why ? "

" you know why "

" I guess I just feel really bad "

" well go talk to him "

" I don't even know where he is "

" he's right behind us standing against the wall with his head down listening to music "

" oh god "

I got up and walked towards him . I stood next to him and looked at him , he looked back at me and I looked him right in the eyes . I felt so bad and I wanted to tell him everything but all the came out was :

" I'm sorry "

" I don't care " He pushed me away and walked off .

Well that's great .

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The bell rang and I ran out to my car , I got in and turned it one . I put in my music and started driving out to the exit . I was at a stop light when joeys mom called me ? I pulled over and answered .

" hello ? Mrs birlem ? He what !? I'm on my way ! "

Oh my god this is all my fault and I won't ever be able to live with myself ever again .