I luv u ; joeybirlem

20

" fuck " I sigh at the fact that I actually woke up .

I got up and checked my phone , it was 3 am . I looked through all my socials , I was looking at my Instagram activity when I noticed I got a new follower . ' carters ' of course we would put that . I looked at his account , I haven't seen him ever since that last time he showed up here and I'm pretty sure he's the one who shot me . ugh I need a new boyfriend asap , I cant stay hung up on joey forever although its going to hurt me to just try and forget about him just like that but , he doesn't want me remember ?

I click on carters profile , of course I ended up stalking him . maybe I should message him and tell him to come over ? maybe he's changed like he said he has ? what the fuck am I even saying ? of course he hasn't . im literally going crazy right now , I need joey but he fucked up and its not my fault even though it somehow feels like it is . I got up and stretched , walked to the bathroom and washed my face , then went back into bed and stayed on my phone .

Knock knock

I get up and walk downstairs and to the door . I stop right infront of it and decide to look through the peep hole before opening the door to my murderer . I step on my tippy toes and peep through the hole to see who it's was and , you already know , It was joey . I rolled my eyes and hesitantly opened the door .

" what " I scoff

" cals I'm sorry " he pleaded , his hands were rubbing his temples in frustration and just looking into his eyes I can feel his sincerity .

" come in " I sighed at the thought of even having him in my room once again .

He showed himself upstairs and into my room with me following right behind , I walked in and closed the door whilst turning to him .

" explain your self birlem " I crossed my arms

" look Callie it's a long story and I really don't want to get you involved "

I scoff , " just fucking tell me , I already am seeing as you even used my name "

" I'm in a lot of trouble Callie " he broke eye contact with me trailing off to my window with his hands on his lap .

" what did you do ? " my eyes widened .

" after we broke up I was doing really dumb things Callie , I got involved with selling and gangs , in fact I'm stuck in one right now . I cant get out and I dont know what to do , I wish I never hurt you Callie , I wish I would have just listened to you and I wish I would have taken your be careful's into consideration that you were just trying to protect me and I'm so sorry Callie . I love you so much and I'm so lost without you and-  " I cut him off and walked up to him and turned his face forwards me .

" look at me " I demanded

I walked up to him and put my hand on the side of his face and looked down into his eyes . I rubbed his face with my thumb and just stared into the beautiful hazel green eyes he has . I took a deep breath and sat on his lap putting my arms on his shoulders and my legs to the side whilst he put his hands on my waist . I just sat there looking at him , I then put my head on his shoulder and just sat there . the feeling of just being in his arms makes me happy , just thought that someone could ever even love me again made me feel all warm inside .

I got up and grabbed some pajamas from my drawer and changed , then I grabbed the box from the top on my closet and threw him some joggers .

" sorry , I don't have another t-shirt because I'm wearing yours to sleep "

" its okay , I don't sleep with a shirt on anyways " he smiled .

he finished putting the joggers on and we climbed into bed , me first then him . I cuddled up into his chest and he pulled me close keeping his hands around my waist .

" joey " I said softly .

" yes Callie baby ,,, " he paused and looked down at me kissing my forehead .

" nothing never mind " I smiled and dug my face back into his chest .

" I love you " he whispered .

I think love you too Birlem ...

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so who is it going to be Callie?

a lost gang member or your obsessive ex ?