*ON HOLD*why me?(janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 22 - Woodland

A/N: just a short update, may update again later today :)

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I found myself in some open woodland, the city's not too far from here, neithers the house. Just taking in the smell of nature makes me feel even more relaxed by the second.

I took out one of the cigarettes, placed it between my lips and lit it, inhaling the smoke. I haven't done this in a while now, but this whole situation is getting to my head. My parents, Jai, Beau, Braden, the fans. It's all too much.

My parents need to piss off and stop calling, if I wanted to answer I would've done it the first hundred times they called. All they do is make me feel like shit, they never cared when I was there but now I'm not there they want to care.

Jai, he's just so nice and loving and I'm trying to love him back but it's so hard. I can feel myself developing deeper feelings for him, he's so strong emotionally, he lived several months loving me while watching me show love to his brother. But there's always that one thing holding me back.

Beau, he's just something else. I can't resist his touch, as much as I want to I can't. There's always going to be something in my heart for him and I can't help that, he was my first love.

Braden, just ugh.

And the fans, some are supportive and some aren't. But all that stands out to me most is the hate, it puts me down. I'm already depressed and that's just adds onto it and puts me down. They may not realise but they make me feel like shit too.

After taking a few drags of my cigarette I heard footsteps and voices. I tried to remain still incase they weren't heading my way, I didn't want to drag attention to myself.

"Hey guys, someone's here." I looked behind me and there was a group of 3 boys walking towards me. I blew the remaining smoke out my mouth and stood up, grabbing my penny board.

"Where you going?" One of the boys asked pulling me back by my waist.

"To my house." I panicked.

"I'm not gonna hurt you, don't worry." His voice was raspy.

"I'm not worrying, I just want to smoke in peace." I tried to act tough but I don't think it was working.

"What do you think we're trying to do?" He chuckled and pointed to his friend who held up a bag of weed and 2 bongs.

"Oh." Was all I could reply.

"So what you doing out here having a smoke crying on your own?" He guides me back to the log I was sat on and we both sat down. His friend started setting up the bongs.

"And why should I tell you?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Feisty, I like it." He smirked. "Come here princess." He wiped away my tears with his thumbs and took a drag of my cig before handing it back to me.

I'm not going to lie, he is hot.(A/N: he's played by Ash Stymest) His brown hair makes his blue eyes stand out even more than they do, and his tattoos are amazing.

"My names Ashley, but everyone calls me Ash." He said in a strong london accent, "and your name is?"

"Tee." I stated and took another drag from my cigarette.

"Well, Tee," he took the bong off his friend, "fancy having a bit of this?"

I haven't smoked weed for ages, and I've never done dab weed. The last time I had it, I felt great, it makes me forget all the stress I have on my shoulders. One hit can't hurt.

"Sure." I snatched it out his hands and took a long hit from the bong.

"Didn't even cough, this girls down to party." He laughed, his friends joined in too. I still haven't caught their names. "So what brings you to America then sweetheart?"

"My boyfriends out here."

"Ahh, so there's a boyfriend involved." He says handing me the bong to take another hit, which I did.

"Yes indeed." I winked at him, "I should be getting back. I kinda left suddenly he'll be worrying about me." I took my phone out my pocket seeing the several missed calls and texts from the boys.

"Aw c'mon, don't be a little bitch. Say for a bit longer. Here look, this is Ben and that's Curtis." Both boys waved at me.

"Fine." I gave in. Why am I giving in so easily, this isn't like me, actually it is, I always let people in too easy.

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Several bong hits later, I was stoned. Everything was making me giggle.

"Boop!" Ash tapped my nose and I burst into hysterics.

"Do you...do you know what I hate?" I said.

"What?" He laughed.

"Boys. Like why can't you just keep it in your pants." I said unsteadily as the drug was taking over my speech.

"Well," his hand rested on my thigh as his face got closer, "a pretty lass like you is gonna have boys after her." He leant in further but I turned my head to the side and he kissed my cheek instead.

"I gotta go, it's.." I looked at my watch, "nine o'clock I've been out to long."

"NOOO, stay." He whined, "I like you!"

"I'm going. It was nice meeting you, I like you too." I picked up my penny board and stuffed the cigaret box in the back of my shorts.

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I stumbled in to the house and into the living room where all the boys were causing their heads to turn to me. They were all shocked, their mouths dropped and they all stood up. Jai rushed to my side.

"Tee what the fuck? Are you high?!?" He exclaimed.

I giggled,"I'm with the angels Jai, I'm floating, I'm an angel." I spread my arms out and ran around the house Jai chasing after me.

"Tee I'm not fucking messing around. Where have you been?"

"Stop talking to me like a teacher, unless you want to do role play." I winked and ran my hand up and down his leg.

He grabbed my hand, "Babe, I'm serious, I've been worried and you come home like this!" He put each of his hands an each side of my cheek, "now tell me where you've been baby. Please." He begged.

"I was in the woodland, with some friends, Ash, Ben and Curtis." I turned around and walked to the fridge, I have a craving for food right now, munchies. (A/N: weed smokers know what I mean, google it.)

"Oh my gosh!" Jai yelled quietly, he ran over and ripped the cigarets out my back pocket. "Please don't tell me..you..what the fuck, I'm throwing these away."

"No, don't! They're mine!" I snatched them out his hand.

"You're going to bed." He threw me over his shoulder and stomped up the stairs past the the rest of the boys.

"Weeeeee, yaay." I giggled a lot more this time, slapping my hands on Jai's bum like a drum.

"Oi." He warned and I laughed even more.

Jai placed me on the bed, taking off my shorts and tucked me in, kissing my cheek. "Go to sleep." He placed one last kiss on my lips.

"Jai?" I said sleepily.

"Yeah baby?"

"I love you too."